For Rebecca Pierce life was never easy. Not since her father left two months after she was born. Life was always hard on her family, she would always try and help out even when she thought it was time to give up.
Rebecca also had a bad past she nev...
"Becca why didn't you tell me you were in the hospital?"
"Uhh I thought you knew?"
"What do you mean you thought I knew"
"Your brother brought me to the hospital."
"HE DID WHAT" Natalie screamed. I then heard many doors slam and many angry footsteps.
"WHY DIDN'T YOU TELL ME BECCA WAS IN THE HOSPITAL!"
"I didn't find it important to tell you."
"SHE'S MY FRIEND HOW COULD IT NOT BE IMPORTANT." 'Whack.' Haha yes Natalie show him who's boss.
"Owww get away from me nat"
"Why is nat hitting Nath" I recognized that voice immediately my smille dropped off my face it was Cole.
"Nathaniel didn't think it was important to tell me Becca was in the hospital."
"Ohh.."
"You knew...You fucking knew and didn't tell me."
"I couldn't."
"And why the fuck not you have a tongue in your mouth for a reason."
"Nathaniel's orders."
"Since when do you listen to anything he has to say about becca!"
"Since he realized that I've been right all along she's trouble and you should all stay away from her."
"Listen here dickhead you will not tell me who I can and cant be friends with, I think you're forgetting who's older here. Becca is a nice girl the sweetest girl I know and I don't appreciate you talking bad about her."
"I'm serious talie all she'll cause is trouble that I will have to fix"
I see the love Nathaniel I see the love I chant in my head as I roll my eyes.
"I can handle my own problems and she's not one, but you Cole I'm disappointed in you the most, who here knows Becca better than you."
"I DO NOT CARE, YOU WILL NOT SPEAK TO HER AGAIN AND THAT'S FINAL!"
"BOY IF YOU DON'T SHUT YOUR ASS UP BEFORE I COME OVER THERE AND..." I hung up before I can hear what Nat would do to Nathaniel.
Its really upsetting to know how one person can change your life forever. If it weren't for him none of this would of happened. I would not of had to deal with Nathaniel and his shit, I would not have to deal with the heartbreak that Cole caused me, I would not have anything to do with the gangs but life is cruel.....Sometimes.
He has caused me so much pain, made me become suicidal one point in my life, but one thing is for sure I'm forever grateful for Makiea if he did not torment me, send me crazy to the point where I did what I had to do I would not of meet Jonathan and I wouldn't of had Makiea.
Makiea is my joy, my reason to live, the one person I can always count on to be there, she is on the top of my list of people I give thanks to God everyday for right next to my mother.
I've never had an easy childhood. There is a picture of an ultrasound floating around on social media with the caption saying the last time I had a decent sleep was here. I believe that picture was made for me, because not only 2 months after I was born my father left my mom with four kids 5,3,2 and me 2 months. I've seen my mom struggle to make ends meet.
My oldest brother acted like a father to me I believed he saw as he was the oldest he needed to grow up fast and help mom but at the age of eighteen he had his first child and at twenty-one his second.
My second brother is hearing impaired he needed extra supervision and his schooling was always hard on mom with the fees and her having to learn sign language to speak to him while working two jobs.
My third brother lets say he was always up to mischief, he had a hard time dealing with the absence of our father as he was only two. Everyday he would ask when dad was coming home and mom would always tell him soon but soon became not enough for him he started growing distant and growing angrier day by day and soon hated our father and vowed he would never be like our father and at the age of 19 had his first child.
Then there was me never knew my father, always felt like it was my fault he left and wanted nothing to do with us. I felt like an outcast never knowing him, my brothers all had small memories but I had nothing all I had was what I've been told and one picture of him I always had on my night stand. When I was younger I told my mom I wanted my dad to sleep with me, she watched me with sad eyes and said 'I'm sorry hunny but that cant happen' and I was determined it could I scrambled off my bed and wobbled to the draw with the picture and rest it on the night stand crawled back into bed and said 'See mummy daddies right there sleeping with me ' as I smiled at her I saw tears rolling down her eyes I was sad that I made my mom cry and then started crying, but even though she was crying she told me not to worry it was happy tears because she knew she had the most special daughter in the world and as I drifted off to sleep she slipped out of my bed and went into the bathroom across from my room and cried. I stayed up listening to her cries to God to help her give her children a better life and to provide the father figure they so desperately wanted. Oh how that totally backfired.
That's why when Cole came into the picture I tried to move on and give Makiea the father figure I know she wants just like I did. What I didn't know is that I can't force these things onto people and I did it to Cole and I regret it. Yes I liked, Cole at the start I could of seen myself with him but now I realise that I can't be with him I needed him in my life for my own selfish reasons and I cant do that to him he's a very wonderful person but I just cant be with him.
I just hope he is willing to forgive me for what I've done. I promise to get in contact with him in the morning and give him my sincere apologies.
So as I crawl into Makiea's bed and lay next to her that night I vowed to myself to be a better mom to be there for my baby through everything so she won't have the need to wonder why her daddy is not visiting her often. That does not mean I won't go behind Jonathan's ass to be in his child's life, ohh I definitely will one last time but if his final decision is to give up on her so be it. She'll grow up to be a strong independent woman with a bright future ahead of her. I Rebecca Lexus Pierce will make it happen for my baby girl if its the last thing I do.
6/09/2018 Well here is another chapter hope you enjoyeddon't forget to vote and comment.
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