Healing Love

Our safe place.

We walked towards the cabin and I was thinking about how to talk to Noah. I wanted to calmly speak to my friends before service. We got inside our cabin and I sat down on my bed. I looked at Noah and talked to him calmly.

"You need to be more careful how you speak."

He listened to me calmly and agreed with me.
"I'm sorry man, I'll be more careful next time."

"It's okay bro." We both hugged it out and started changing before service. We all wore jeans and t-shirts.

I wore a casual blue t-shirt, with my black Nike and black slightly ripped jeans. Noah wore ripped jeans and a black shirt, covered with a stripped blue flannel and a pair of converse, he's usual artsy style shining through. And Alvin wore a purple button up with black jeans and rebook shoes.

We went walking and got to the indoor church, it was absolutely amazing, it was huge to say the least. We walked in and I saw Abigail and her friends sitting, they had chairs behind them. I thought that would be the best way to go, since these girls didn't know us yet, I didn't want to scare them. We sat down and the service started.

We sang amazing songs, like "Reckless Love", "Amazing Grace", "We Believe", just to name a few.

It was amazing and you could feel God's presence in the place. There we're aproximately 200 teens, without including the adults and staff.

The order was me, Noah and Alvin from left to right. In front of me sat Rachael, in front of Noah sat Grace and in front of Alvin sat Abigail. During service I look towards Alvin and suddenly change my view towards Abigail. I looked towards her and I felt my heart stop.....

I saw Abigail singing "I can only imagine", tears falling down her cheeks, her hands trembling and her sweet voice cracking. The pasión in which she sang made me feel like I could faint any second. I felt slightly out of breath and I couldn't stop watching her. I felt a warm sensation in my chest, then turned around and kept singing.

It was 7:30 pm and the sermon had started. As soon as that happened I felt my heart racing......

It was about how we don't dedicate as much love to God as we should. I listened carefully and it was amazing. And no matter how much we fail, even as christians, God still loves us.

I felt guilty in my heart, but I knew I needed to ask for forgiveness......

So I did

My heart kept racing and I slowly got to feel the way the Holy Spirit spoke to me. I was standing up front by myself, since I knew that that would make it more personal and I wouldn't think twice about shedding a tear, or a thousand.

My heart started shaking and it was the best feeling ever.

Abigail's pov
As the pastor began the sermon, I knew there was something amazing about to happen. My hands were shaking during the songs and I felt that something different was about to happen today.

I cried, as usual since whenever I fell any strong emotion I cry. I love crying at church, because it makes me feel vulnerable towards God. He's the only one that knows why I'm crying. It's like we have a secret. I always try to wipe them down quickly, but my friends still sometimes notice.

So I decide to go up front. I needed to do this because with college and work, I haven't spent enough time with God, hardly any. And this has been really hard for me. I need to keep that spark alive, and not letting myself leave my first love.

When I passed up front I went and just started singing the songs that were playing the singers.

It was "you say" by one of my favorite singers.

I just started to sing and enjoy every second of it. I haven't really been paying much attention to the people around me, but when I looked to the side I say that I had stood by Caled.

I looked at him closely. He had a blue shirt and some black jeans. Without noticing I look at his shoes and they were black Nike's.

I looked at my own outfit and saw that I was wearing the exact same thing, exept my jeans were blue.

I chuckled a little to myself. He looked amazing singing, even though I couldn't hear him clearly through the noise. At one moment he lifted his head and looked around, when he suddenly looked and saw me. Our eyes connecting for a second.

I felt my body freezing in the midst of it. I looked at his deep brown eyes and I felt lost in them. I also noticed that he was only slightly taller than me, maybe he was 6 feet. His straight hair combed to the side and I felt like everything froze for a second.

Then I came back to reality and I realized that it had only pased five seconds. I turned around, to act as if I was looking around( clearly I was not anymore) and I closed my eyes and kept singing. I slowly moved a bit away from him, since I found him really distracting.

They prayed for me and I felt really forgiven and happy.I sat down feeling like a sudden weight was lifted of my chest. I felt happy.

And as I looked at the people up front I saw Caleb praying at the altar. I suddenly shed a tear. I wiped it off confused.

Maybe I'm just sensitive now...

Maybe...

Hey guys
It has been way too long, but I have decided to keep going with this story. I'm so thankful for every one of you who decides to even look at my story. I love you guys so much and remember, God loves you too.
Kisses, Sofi