Mine(ho)

Chapter 6

(Minho's POV)
Y/N  has been unconscious for three days and nights. I am starting to worry about her. I haven't been sleeping or eating much. I'm scared she might die the second I close my eyes and I have almost completely lost my appetite. I know she will be fine but there is a little voice at the back of my head saying "what if she doesn't wake up ever again?" If she never woke up again I don't think I could be able to continue running the maze or even properly living life. It would almost be pointless without her, correction it would be pointless without her.
She is my world and she doesn't even know it. I wish I had the courage to tell her. Everyone thinks I am this big tough guy that isn't scared of anyone or anything, that is true. I'm not scared of anyone or anything, I'm scared of losing people close to me. Not that I would ever show it or tell them but if I lost Y/N, Newt and Thomas. I'm sure it would be the most painful thing I will ever experience.
I wish I could just tell her how I feel. I wish I hadn't shouted at her the other day. I feel so bad about it, yes Ben was my best friend but it was the right thing to do. He was a hazard to everyone else, there is probably better, alternative, less cruel ways to have killed him but we don't want blood on our hands and in a way it's even harder to have to execute a person yourself. I would know because it was the old system. A lot of problems arose from that way so we had to change our ways.
I wish Y/N could see it from my point of view. I was about to speak before she stormed off. She has an amazing ability at ignoring people. Maybe I have really messed it up for us, maybe this has ruined our friendship and our chance to be more.
Just then Y/N's eyes flicker open and she groans.
"My head is pounding," she mumbles, her brow furrowing.
"You'll be okay in another couple days," I say cheerily.
I am so relieved she is awake, though I suppose until she is completely better I should still be a little worried but the worst has past.
"Its still hurts until then," she mumbles. "Wait, how did I get here?"
"I carried you here," I say shrugging.
"It's no big deal,"
"Thank you," she says as she sits up and hugs me tightly.
She has to lie down again though because her head is too sore to sit up.
I am allowed another few days off while she heals because Alby knows there is no point arguing with me about me running the maze while Y/N Is recovering.
Once she has fully recovered Alby gives us an extra day to spend together. We decide to spend it by the lake in the Deadheads.
We stripped down to our underwear and went swimming in the lake together. I tried my best to be respectful of Y/N And not look at her too much but she did look so damn sexy in her underwear. Luckily she didnt catch me glancing.
Y/N Is so amazing at swimming she is like a fish because she is so at home in the water. I can swim but not nearly as well as Y/N.
We spend basically the whole day swimming, splashing and laughing. It was great. I almost worked up the courage to tell her how i feel but then I chickened out again as usual.