(I felt the warmth of the sofa behind my back as I crossed my legs and made myself more comfortable. I run my fingers thru my dark brown hair as some of the smooth strings fall beside my ears. I look out the window and see the pouring rain, washing the Earth, cleaning our sins and problems away. Only if it could also clean my problems. But it can't and I know that, which why I'm here.)
Beth: Here you go, your coffee. Dark and only two sugars, just like how you like it.
(I take the coffee from her hands and force myself a little smile at her, she smiles back, as usual, sits down on the sofa in front of me and crosses her legs)
Beth: So...are you ready to start?
(Y/N): *Sighs* I thought I called you and we agreed that we would stop this
Beth: (Y/N)....We can't stop now. We've come this far on your improvement
(Y/N): Improvement? You can't expect me to believe that
Beth: Well...I'll be honest...no...you are not improving
(Y/N): I can't force myself to!
Beth: Look, the whole reason you come to me is so we can talk. Just talk. And you can be yourself with me. I know your my patient and I'm your therapist. But I also want to be your friend. You only have to talk to me.
(Y/N): There's really not much to talk about
Beth: Yes...you never come out of your apartment except working as a waitress in that cafe and coming here to meet me or buy some groceries. You don't have any friends here nor you try to make any. (Y/N), if you continue like this, there won't be any improvements
(Y/N): Yeah...you can talk to my mother for that...she forced me to come here
Beth: Yes...here...in London so you can have a fresh start after everything you've been through. You have to give yourself a chance to open up to the world
(Y/N): Why??
(I finally look right at her eyes intently)
(Y/N): This world has nothing in it for me...and whatever your implying, is a complete waste of time.
Beth: You seem stressed
(Y/N): I am stressed! I need to find a new flat at a more cheaper rate because my landlord is going nuts on me and here you are lecturing me and breathing on my neck!
(I put down the cup of coffee, that I didn't even took a sip from, in front on top of the small table, stood up and grabbed my bag)
(Y/N): So I have to go...this session is over
Beth: (Y/N)....
(Y/N): Look Beth...I appreciate you helping me...but I'm fine now...I really am...I'm just not interested in these talks of ours anymore...I'm done....we've been doing this for two years ....and I'm done
(I pace towards the front door)
(Y/N): Goodbye Beth...
(She looks at me with innocent eyes but gives a small nod, and I step outside as the gush of cold wind fills my lungs. I close the door on my way out and put on my gloves. It was another cold morning in London.)
(I need to find a new flat fast...or I'll be around on the streets with my luggages but without no place to stay at)
(I thought to myself as I walk down the sidewalk to the heart of the city)
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Sentiment (Sherlock Fanfiction)
FanfictionSherlock: Love is a dangerous disadvantage. Sentiment is nothing but only a chemical deffect found in the losing side (Y/N): Yeah I know, you said that about a countless times. You don't have to keep reminding me He goes quiet for a while before sp...
