I just want to break down
Like really break down
With tears streaming down my face
While I'm gasping for air to keep my lungs in my chest
But all I can ever manage to do
Is to get this lump in my throat
That is more of a punishment
Than a relief
And when I'm done
All I feel is worse
And it seems as if I can never fully snap out
Of this breakdown
And I want to scream
At everyone and everything
So much my brain is actually shaking
But I can't
Because I'm too strong
Or too weak
