a healthy dose of an unhealthy mind

high school drop out

someone, anyone
please teach me how to love myself
i never really learned how

i know it's not taught
in any school
or book
but i never quite got the hang of it

i imagine it feels like a warm summer day
with the sun in the sky
it's warmth on my face

i imagine it feels like a giant bear hug
from my favorite person
or from who i've longed to be able to love

i imagine it feels like having a water bottle next to the bed
in the middle of the night
cool and refreshing and healing my throat

i've never known what it feels like
to embrace who i am
to look in the mirror
and see a smile
on my cold, broken face
battered by my own mind

someone, anyone
please teach me how to love myself
i never really learned how

please

i'm barely getting by