"You say you're a lycanthropy but so far from what I've seen you're just a mere mortal"
"Me the great Lycan king of all Wolves a mere mortal" he questioned
"Why are you questioning me I'm only stating facts if you're such a great Lycan why don't y...
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3 am
As I lay on my back with Emerald on top of me. The only thoughts that seem to cross my mind are my beautiful relationship with my sweet Emerald will be coming to a sad end and soon. This is all too much and I don't know how to accept it.
We've been together for years and I truly love her, I do. She's my rock, my motivation, my strength ... my everything. Sometimes I feel she means more to me than I mean to her.
She has helped me through my darkest times and has accepted me despite all my flaws. I love her family and they love me. I wouldn't leave her, and I wouldn't want her to leave me. But it seems that the decision is not mine to make but hers and to be completely honest with myself and realistic I don't know what will happen or what she'll choose. It might sound dramatic but I can't live without her here with me. That is because she keeps me warm. All those cold nights she was right beside or on top of me whenever I needed her or when I didn't know I needed her. She silences my demons, the negativity that was once in my life. She helped me ..... with my dreams of being a doctor, while everyone laughed at me she supported me against all odds.
I have also supported her, I've been her rock. Her shoulder to cry on. Her everything. I want to say I know she'll never leave me but she has a mate. No matter how weird it is because faeries don't have mates. Some faeries are asexual and aromantic. While others are the complete opposite.
Pero, the thing is Faeries don't have mates.
The events of today's class haunt me. I sat there weak and helpless as I watched her get manhandled, but I wanted to help her. Yet I couldn't. I'm not much of a fighter, she knows that and yet she accepts me for it. But. I would never just watch her get hurt. I wanted to help truly I did, but physically I couldn't. It was like something was holding me in place some unknown force restricting my movement and I blame myself for being so weak. So weak that I couldn't help my girlfriend I looked pathetic. She doesn't deserve a pathetic, weak boyfriend. She's so strong and outspoken and I'm not.
Emmy roles off my chest and asks "what are you up thinking about so hard about" her husky voice excites me.
"Losing you" I murmur trying to ignore my hormones.
"Losing me why would you lose me" she questions disoriented.
"Because you have a mate and you'll end up leaving me for him," I tell her honestly.
I watch as she sighs and rolls over onto her back, then sits up facing me. Her beautiful eyes staring at me. She looks emotionally and physically drained.
"I don't want to talk about this, but I know we have to. I want you to know I truly love you. You are very important to me, you mean the world to me and I'm never leaving you. That rapist bastard can go screw himself".
"Rapist bastard, what the hell happened" I question growing angrier by the seconds.
"He raped me" she confirmed.
"He raped you ..... the Royal Beta RAPED YOU, your mate raped... I can't believe it" I said to himself shocked.
"What do you mean can't believe ... what can't you believe" she questioned while bursting into tears.
"No bebe I believe you. I'll always believe you. I have always believed you. It's just those wolves are so caring and loving of their mates and he's disrespected everything about the mate bond." I responded.
"Yes," she said sorrowly.
"Don't let this bring you into depression, don't sit here and wallow in sorrow and pity, I am here. I am and will always be here do you hear me, I'll never go no matter how many mates come along, you'll overcome this. Let me be your rock, your home, your protection. I will be here." I said while staring into her eyes and grasping her shoulders hoping she'd listen to me and not let this bring her into depression.
She didn't respond she just collapsed against me weeping against my chest drenching my shirt. A waterfall of sorrow was falling from her beautiful eyes and there was nothing I could. Her feelings seeping out like a broken dam that I could not fix. I am the passenger to her uncontrollable emotions like a volcano you'll never know when it'll erupt. I don't know what to do how to help.
When she fell asleep that night in that dark room Zachery sat up in bed. And made a silent vow to kill the Royal beta Diamond.
The following morning 6:30 am
Emerald's Pov
What do I do?
Will they believe me?
Who should I tell first?
I lay in bed awake thinking about how I'm going to continue living after what happened with my mate that night. I just want to forget what happened and never talk about it again. But I can't, I just can't. I hate feeling like this. I hate this feeling or these feelings. I just want to be alone in my room. Silence and peace are what I need to repair the damage that has been done to me.
I drag my self out of bed and start to get ready for my week vacation at my greenhouse. Carefully to not wake him up I grabbed my duffle bag from my closet and packed a weeks worth of clothes, shoes, blankets, and anything else I will need.
My greenhouse is my sanctuary. It's a personal space where all my plants are. I do most of my healers' training there. It's a 2-story house, that on the outside is a glass greenhouse with white boarders and inside all the way to the back is a door that hides a white spiral staircase that leads upstairs into my living section. There's one bedroom, one bath, and all the other stuff you need in a house plus a library. But from the outside, you can't see the second floor. I've placed an invisible spell on it. The surrounding area is a forest with beautiful wildlife, plants and a cave with a waterfall.
I should write a note or something to Zach and my family so they don't think the worst has happened to me again waking up alone and then I'll be off.
*5 minutes later I wrote a letter for Zachery & my family*
I decided to walk into town and catch a cab to the town that my sanctuary is and walk the rest of the way. I didn't feel like driving or walking the whole way but I also didn't want people knowing where my family house or my sanctuary is located. We are kind of important people.
So while I'm here the first thing I will do is meditate. I'm going to take this week to helm mind, soul, and body. This week will help me become stronger because I don't know what he did to me but I was incapable of helping myself or stopping him and I know Zachery was too. Zachery may be my submissive but by no means is he incapable of standing up for himself and defending me. Something is very wrong and it needs to be fixed.
