why?//Emerson Barrett

Ragdoll//palaye royale

Okay, okay yeah I know I'm really bad with this but I am trying to do something that I can continue and I am seeing then on Halloween ,and I know myself soon gonna be obsessed with them until at least October so don't worry

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High school times

BANDIT P.O.V

I was walking home with Emerson from work we both work at hot topic yeah yeah I know but ...meh, it is chilly for some reason in June, I am going over to his house as I do every day let me give you a run down on my relationships with them all

Rem: I am pretty good friends with him I'm not as close with him as I am the other but we get along and he is pretty cool to just sit and eat nutella with all day which we have had some of those day and I love him in his own Remington way

SEB: oh seb, me and seb are defiantly the closest we share everything with each other and I don't know.why but he is like a second piece to my wicked twisted puzzle and when we are around each other we are inseparable ,but when we fight,we fight we love each other the rest of the time and obviously bicker but we love each other and we fight may be once a year, don't speak for a week miss each other to much and then talk and have a "sebandit" day which I love they are the best ... I am also the only person why knows his secret he is too scared to tell his family his dad I get but I don't brothers but I love him and won't push any thing on him , basically I love him

EM: oh Emerson Barrett, the guy who I liked and surprisingly liked me back we are in a relationship and I am really happy,I can only hope he feels the same

We have known each other from the beginning of 9th grade it basically went like this

"Hey I'm Sebastian you look lost"

"Yeah,cuz I am, sorry I'm bandit"

"I'm seb-uh yeah, uh you need help finding first period?"

"Yeah, if you don't mind me asking , why are you so tall"

"Oh, well uh I kinda had to repeated the grade"

"Oh cool can you help me to the office ?"

And from then on we were inseparable I came over to his house one day and met his brothers and, lets just say we all became friends fast

Now I am walking back with Emerson we approach the house laughing as he said if they were a shirt they would be a KROPP TOP  half of me wants to applaud him and half of me wants to hit him

We walk in and see Remington and Sebastian standing at the door with sad looks on there faces "what's up?" I ask then seb comes and attacks me in a hug I hug him back because duh he...unhugs me? If that's a word and says "I'm just gonna miss you" I look confused "what?!" "You haven't fucking told her" rem says then comes and attacks me in a hug I hug him back because duh "it just hasn't come up"  seb huffs "then you should've fucking made it come up" I pull away from rem and smile and furrow my eyebrows

"Okay, what the fuck is going on?" I say

"Uh sit down" Emerson says I sit reluctantly but I sit "we uh, how do I say this um wearegoingontour" he says fast "gonna have to say it a little slower there,bud" he sighed "we are going on tour" he says looking at me exspectingly I don't know why they kept this from me I'm happy for them "that's great! When do you leave!" I say with a smile "um tomorrow" I frees and the smile leaves me face my eyes gloss over with tears but I quickly blink them away and and clear my throat and sit up straight

"And you telling me...now" I say looking at all of them "please don't get mad at us we told em to tell you two months ago " rem says I sigh at little and slouch a bit

Why wouldn't he just tell me? That's the only reason I'm a little upset, but I have two options 1 get mad and give him the yelling he fucking deserves but what good would a fight do? I mean he will be back or 2 be calm and accept it

"Just make sure to contact me " I say to no one in particularly  I give a kinda sad smile but its the best I can do "so how long is the tour?" I ask sabastion inhaled
"Your fucking kidding me Emerson " he says I can't take much more he looks at me with sympathetic eyes "um, we also got signed " Okay that's good but I know there is a but "but with us signing it it would mean that we have to move out there, and in we already kinda signed it " there it is

Tears once again but I will not let them see that I don't cry

I take a deep breath

"Yeah, uh yeah thats-that's great em,I'm happy for you guys, really" I say trying my best to smile but it doesn't come out to well rem being closest hugs me I hug him back probably the hardest I have ever hugged anyone and he does the same I pull back and smile my best fake smile then I see seb oh fuck it he has tears in his eyes as well I start crying and go over to him and hug him never mind thus is the hardest I have ever hugged and same with him I just start crying and I don't know why they have never seen me cry I pull away and stop my self and whip my face seb sees me and hugs me again I hug him back and pull away and smile at him "I love you seb" I say with a look of ...why on my face "I love you too " he says and hugs me again

Then Emerson I walk to him I hug him and then I kiss him the most passionately I have ever I pull away and then I slap him ...what?

"What the hell what that for!
"Not  telling me asshole" he looks up at me "...fair enough" I nod and hug him again not so nice on the hugs

"What am I gonna do without you guys?"
I say with a sad smile "I don't know go to collage?" Rem says "yeah get you degree girl" seb says sassily I laugh "move on" I hear Emerson say sadly I look at him "what?" I say with concerned eyes as do the guys but at this moment I only reply care about what Emerson has to say

He stands up and walks to me
"I just, don't trust myself on tour and you don't deserve that" he says and walks toward me I back up running into Sebastian "dick move" I hear Remington say I huff and look down biting my lip while smiling in a sarcastic way
"So let me get this straight, you don't love me enough to be faithful"i say to him "no, I jus" "then please explain what I am missing" I say raising my voice and walking toward him "I don't know i just, I don't trust myself" I shake my head "if you don't trust yourself, then how can I trust you Emerson" he just sighed I sarcastic laugh and turn around to rem and seb "contact me and call me I wanna stay in touch "I smile at both of them and hug them both again then I turn around and walked towards Emerson

"And you, don't bother contacting me" I pick up my water cup from the table and throw it in his face  he sucks in a deep breath I walk around him and leave not slamming the door just how I normally would leave except this time for good

*time skip back home*

I get home and text Remington and Sebastian "hey sorry I left how I did but I don't really feel back for doing it to Emerson anyways, I love y'all BOTH please contact me!" I text and immediately get a reply from Sebastian "of course,love ya doll (also you were justified )" I smile and then I get one from Remington "you know I will, I love ya (also I'm sorry my brothers a dick) "I smile and send them back hearts

That was the last time I saw them...two years ago

-Okay I really hope I can keep to this -M♣♥♠♦