Online. [benedict cumberbatch]

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@IDontEvenKnowAnymore they all find out eventually. 

I walked into my dressing room and changed into a casual top. It had short sleeves revealing faint white lines on my arms. I went to grab a jumper just as my door opened. 

"Jesus fucking christ can you not learn to knock?" I shouted at Steven, who looked shocked. 

He didn't notice anything at first. 

"Calm down," he laughed. "Just to tell you Ben, we're ditching the first page on the new script you got. Martin's lines seem too forced, so we'll just start in the apartment scene."

"Whatever", I muttered, waving him out.

He stopped. He was motionless. He stared.

His eyes flicked between my wrist and my face, a look of bewilderment overtaking him.

I shifted my glance to the floor, trying to figure out what to say. 

"Ben, I-"

"Leave me alone." I growled. He looked slightly taken aback. 

"I can't fucking ignore this, Ben. You expect me to pretend I've not bloody seen this? What the hell are you doing?"

I sighed. 

"Leave me alone," I repeated, more anger in my tone.

"You know what? Fine. I will 'leave you alone'. Don't bother showing up tomorrow. Don't bother showing up again. Your personality is shit, your attitude is shit - you've got nothing going for you. Go ahead and do what you want. I'm done caring. The show is in fucking turmoil because of you; we'll just bloody end it, or at least delay it until you get your fucking head out of your arse. Sort yourself out."

He left the room. 

I sat. Head my my hands. 

Salty tears left my eyes. He was right. I was a mess. 

I didn't care.

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@YouWouldntBelieveMe remember when you were a kid and nothing you did had consequences? I want that now.

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@IDontEvenKnowAnymore  we always want to be the things we're not.

@IDontEvenKnowAnymore  when I was younger I wished I could be older. 

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