EPHEMERAL- LSK.NJH

together&cake

January 11, 2006

in·tro·duc·tion: a presentation of one person to another, in which each is told the other's name.

NJH

"what're we doing today?" the younger i had been trying to shake off the day before is once again by my side. i shrug while continuing down the sidewalk, looking for the store sunghee had been going on about for a while now.

"but it looks like you have a place in mind." he continues, seeming as though it had been his first time walking around these parts of the city. "because i do have a place in mind. for me. alone." i counter back. even without looking at him, i notice a flash of hurt which soon disappears as his box like smile spreads across his face.

"that's one attribute i really like about you. you're really blunt. it's refreshing." he laughs a bit to himself and i roll my eyes.

i think back to our unexpected encounter. after me so hopelessly telling him to get lost, he continued to follow me around the whole day, having my words go through one ear and out the other. the lack of interest i have in him seems to lose against his need to know everything there is to know about me.

all trials of trying to loose him had failed. my last attempt was heading into a lingerie shop only to find him making a few woman laugh as he helped them pick out some underwear.

if i could've gone backs and decided to take up the offer yoongi had given me, i would have been distracted from coming to terms with how shitty i actually felt and his sudden appearance was not helping my mood. it had come to a point where i had become so fed up with him mindlessly following me around, a point where all of my stress and desolation caused by the prior events of that day had built up and exploded right into his face.

"what is it that you want so badly that you won't leave me alone huh? are you doing this just to make fun of me? do you really have nothing better to do? what is your deal?" he looked at me, eyes wide and annoyingly confused. "because you've never met someone like me? is it because my jacket isn't as new as yours or because my shoes aren't as shiny? there's not much to learn so would you just get lost?"

his shoulder slumped and his eyebrows furrowed. he then looked up at me and down to the snow repetitively. "i'm sorry i didn't realize. i was being too pushy wasn't i? i'm really honestly sorry it's just you seemed interesting and i," he huffed. a small quick one. a frustrated one. taehyung drew his foot back and forth nervously as he drew circles with his shoes on the snow.

at that moment, he grew to a state i didn't know was possible for a person like him, timid. it's as if he was continuously shrinking, growing smaller as my glare intensified. reality had literally slapped me across the face. why have i been judging someone i have no background knowledge about? i'm not the only person in he world with problems.