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so, i've been a little depressed hooman for these past 2 days for no reason, & yeah that sucks. it got to the point where i lashed out at my crush, and he was there to comfort me at 2a.m in the morning, so i'm feeling okay for now. yeah, i've just been playing songs on my ukulele as a form of coping with this all-time low. music can be so helpful. i guess that's why i have a close attachment with it, it helps me with my emotions. school will be starting for me in about 3 weeks, so i'm definitely ready for that, but i'm also dreading it. i have to do more work this year, me being part of my school's honors program and all. i'm also planning on doing sports this year. maybe i'll join a couple clubs here and there, and continue doing orchestra this year. yeah, this year will be jam-packed with work, programs, painful memories, drama and horrible school lunches. oh no, and we can't forget me being part of my school's honors society, so gotta get those volunteer hours in. so, i won't be active as much anymore [i mean, when was i ever active?] due to all this shit ton of work and anxiety i'll have this year. so oof, i guess i can say i'll be on hiatus, i'll be on once in a while, but not consistently. i love all of you, thanks for being there for me, i want to give you guys a hug, but i can't since i'm communicating with you through a screen.