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update:

so, yeah, my crush invited me and my friends to his concert in another school. i attended today and he waved at us while he was playing. it was so cute i busted so many uwus. i saw him dancing along with the rest of the band to the song they were performing, which was "thriller " by micheal jackson. everytime i see him, i get ecstatic shock. i was really bummed after that, since me and my friend were trying to give my crush roses (my friend knows that i like the guy we were trying to give flowers) but we found out he left, we were still searching for him everywhere tho:( rip, but at least i get to see him tomorrow?¿ it just won't have the same vibe to it tho:'( i really hope i have the courage this time to actually get my lazy bum to talk to him, everytime I talk to him, i stutter and have nothing to see since i'm always at a loss of words. well my life is sad:'9 adios, that's all i have for this update on my shitty life where i can't even function properly in front of guys even though i technically dress like one, act like one (sometimes) and almost sound like one. bro i should be a pro at socializing, but there's this little shit called social anxiety:')