toxic || kim namjoon

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Yana's POV

I fiddled with my fingers waiting for the therapist to call me in. I was ready to speak about it to someone who might actually give me some decent advice unlike the basics.

"Miss Yana?" The middle aged woman called out of her room with a faint smile on her heavily made up face.

"That's me" I gave her a weak smile before getting up and entering her room.

"Take a seat" She calmly said. I did as she told me and took a deep breath.

"So, what would you like to talk about today?" She asked crossing her legs and putting her glasses back on her face.

"My relationship" I answer. She nodded her head slowly and i spoke again.

"All we do is argue all the time"

"Why is that?"

"We're in a toxic relationship"

"Why don't you just break up?"

"Because he's just someone you can't leave no matter"

"How did your relationship become toxic?" Mrs. Sue asked. I fought my tears back at the thought of the memory.

"It started about 4 months ago, we had this huge argument over something stupid and then that lead to constant fights over small things" I say tearing up a little. Mrs. Sue handed me a box of tissues and i wiped my eyes probably ruining my makeup.

"Have you talked to him about it?" She asked touching my arm to comfort me.

"I tried but that also ends in a fight" I sob trying to put together my messy thoughts.

"I see, what happens after a fight?" She asked leaning in.

"I storm off to the room, slam the door and cry, i cry myself to sleep almost every night"

"Does he do the same?"

"I don't know"

"Tell me, what happens during the argument?"

"He tries to stay calm but i explode and scream at him then he begins to yell"

"Have you ever hit one another?"

"Yes, i hit his chest and arm before but he never really touched me expect he once pushed me by accident"

"Has your career suffered from it?"

"Yes, i don't upload as much and i wanna speak out about it but i'm too scared to and his fans will attack me and say this is all my fault"

"Do you ever apologise to each other?"

"No, we never do"

"Do you show any affection?"

"No, we don't kiss or hug, cuddle any of that stuff but we do fuck thats the only affection we show"

"After the fights?"

"Yes, we end up doing it and then not speaking to each other until another fight breaks out"

"Does anyone know about it?"

"I told my friend but she didn't do much and i think he told his, but none of us told our fans"

She nodded her head at me and sighed.

"Looks like you've got a really toxic relationship going on, is it too hard for you to leave?"

"I tried but i just can't let go and even if I did I would just end up coming back"

Once i said that, tears just began escaping from my eyes and i was full on crying in her office. She tried her best to confront me until there was a small knock on the door.

"Mrs. Sue, Miss. Mina is here" A female voice said. Mrs. Sue nodded and the lady left.

"I'll get going" I say getting up to leave.

"Thank you for coming Yana, remember if you need to talk please just feel free to come." She smiled at me before i left her office.

My makeup was smudged so i rushed to hell, i mean home.

Once i arrived, luckily he wasn't home. I took my boots off and took my jacket off.

A noise caught my attention, i hoped it was just Rapmon moving around but it got louder by the minute.

I turned around to find a tall figure standing in front of me.

Oh fuck, here we go again.

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so much dialogue oml
btw this story has got smut, swearing, and some triggering topics so yk
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(Y'all this shit is cringe just warning y'all)
(Also if you don't like any of the names used in this fanfic, you can use ya own)

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