Desperation

Just Me and My Raincloud

I wouldn't flinch if you held a gun to my forehead.
I'd simply stare and smile,
hoping you knew I'd rather be dead.
Instead I watch my parade drain of colour.
It's from the rain cloud that darkens with every shower.
My rain cloud.
I'm always the one who hails on my own parade,
And watches every lightning strike,
And hears each bit of thunder.
It never goes away.
It'll never go away.
I wish to revert back to a simpler time.
A time where I was afraid of gloomy weather.
A time where I'd rather shine.
A time where I could control my weather.
I revert back into a child state of mind,
Where my memories and imagination are a place that never goes to waste.
It's my safe haven.
It's my war bunker sheltering me from word bombs and mouth guns full of ammunition.
I'm waiting until the cloud disappears.
But it'll never disappear.
Everyday I pray that I'll see the sun shine again,
Where I can be happy and watch the sky flutter.
I long to be free like the birds and the bees,
Smelling flora and I fly high by them.
But that will never happen.
As I'm stuck here with no umbrella.
No umbrella to shade me from this weather.
Just the rain.
Just the rain washing away my mask of pain.
It's just me and the rain today.
It's just me and the rain everyday.
Just me and my raincloud.

-------By Justice-------