my spartace and kwangmong heart:'

REPLACE PT.6

Kwangsoo only agreed to date Somin because he knew he had to get over his silly feelings over his Noona. He knew that these feeling would only get him into trouble one day; and he didn't want that to happen.

He knew that his dongsaeng was trying hard to help him clear his mind off his Noona, and he didn't want to hurt her or take advantage of her, hence he always made it a point to stop after a simple peck on the lips.

She was fun to drink with and would lament along with him as they complained about life. And that was all he could remember until he got drunk and woke up in his bed the next day.

On the dates where suju wasn't involved, Kwangsoo would listen to Somin's pearls of wisdom. She often talked about her own personal views on certain situations and Kwangsoo found her trail of thoughts motivating and inspiring. He was intrigued by her wisdom that was masked behind her innocent and carefree looks.

Yet, Kwangsoo also knew that aside from Somin helping him change, he himself had to have do something to truly help him get over Jihyo. But at the thought of his Noona walking down the aisle with Jongkook by her side, his heart ached. He couldn't find the courage to get over his Noona. He knew that no matter how much Somin encouraged him to get over Jihyo, he would never really overcome those feelings unless he did something.

It was like knowing you're simply getting caught up in a lie, but the lie is so charming and seductive that merely avoiding the truth is not enough. He wanted to live that lie. He wanted the lie of being okay to be his reality.

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Somin was excited, and she hadn't felt this way in a while. Ironically, the person who made her smile so huge like an idiot was none other than the same idiot who made her weep her heart out just before.

"Hey Somin, let's go out tonight," Kwangsoo smoothly asked Somin after the filming of Running Man. Somin felt a sense of dread flood though her, but she plastered a smile on her face for her loved one.

"Where? You want to have another drink?" Somin tried not to sound biased against the idea of getting drunk again. Thankfully, Kwangsoo didn't plan to return to the drinking house. Instead, what he said next made Somin flush pink and let out a wide, happy smile.

"Let's have a late supper at the park."

Somin anxiously picked on the hem of her sleeve, suddenly worried if she had dressed too casual in her oversized shirt and denim skinny jeans. Her pink cap was pulled low so she wouldn't be spotted by fans, and her hazelnut waves were neatly combed to cascade down like a waterfall.

At last, her long-awaited man arrived in a similar attire, but in black.

"Yah, we're a couple!" Somin playfully joked. Kwangsoo was carrying a medium sized paper bag, and he humorously revealed it's contents to Somin.

"Look! It's the super nice cheesecake I told you about the other day. I brought some, lets have them later when you're hungry."

Kwangsoo's childish joy made Somin laugh. It felt good; laughing out loud in a while. It has been long, Somin realized, since she'd let out such a pure, genuine laugh. It's been a while, it's been a long, long while.

This is nice. I like it. This is why I like you, Kwangsoo. But you're too stupid to realize that, huh?

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"Somin, I'll be quick!" Kwangsoo yelled from afar as he jogged backwards into the familiar tent they always drank at. He saw her give an "okay" sign with her signature smile, so he ran.

"Hello Auntie!" Kwangsoo greeted the vendor. "I'm just going to get some tissues." Kwangsoo pointed at his cheesecake-stained shirt with an apologetic smile.

"Young man, do you know this is the first time I've seen you sober?" The auntie in her mid-fiftes called from behind, chuckling to herself. "Your girlfriend always had to suffer and carry you back afterwards! Tsk tsk, how irresponsible!" She clicked her tongue jokingly. Kwangsoo simply laughed, and told her, "she isn't my girlfriend! And at least we didn't make a mess of the place like the others!"

The auntie only retorted, "you didn't make a mess of the place, but you made a mess of that young woman's heart! I swear, young couples these days... Look at how happy your girlfriend is now! Next time, instead of getting drunk and doing the complicated kissing thing, you guys should just take some time out and have a nice picnic..."

"Complicated kissing?"

At her words, Kwangsoo halted. His mind suddenly hurt, and he stood still. His mind raced back, and he felt a sharp pain as the memories from his drunken state suddenly rushed back all at once. The background went blur, and the noises went mute in his brain.

All the flashes of images in his mind passed like lightning, but Kwangsoo recalled one scene especially well.

He tasted her lips hungrily. She respond equally as needy for comfort, and their tongues engaged in a rough fight.

Finally they relaxed, and Kwangsoo pulled Somin close, and whispered in her ear, "...Noona... I will always love you..."

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