John :Aunt Sarah are you okay ?
Me :Oh yes of course I' m okay ,Why wouldn't I be okay ?And you are okay ?Oh I didn't see M.Bright smile…What am I saying ?
I was talking too fast that all was there was shocked !
Doctor :Is it your day off ?
Me :Me ? Oh yes !
Doctor :It's nice from you to take your cousin's son to his consultation !
Me :Oh it's nothing !I love him like if he's my own son !
I hugged John and he was judging me so hard.
Doctor :Okay let's begin !Take off your shirt first !
That kid was only formed of bones he was skinny and unhealthy !
Doctor :breath slowly…good job !
He finished the consultation and went to the restroom,I took the chance not to approach him but I was concerned about something :
Me :Is he okay ?
Doctor :Didn't madame Clears told you ?
Me :I'm not sure !
Doctor :He has a breathing problems and lack of appetite.
Me :From when ?
Doctor :two years,it seems like you really didn't know.
I was shocked !
In the way home,no one was talking I felt sorry for the kid that I couldn't look at him,I felt like I'm an horrible person .We was walking and he suddenly took my hand,I looked finally at him :
John :I'm afraid that a car can crush me so an you take my hand until we cross the road.
I didn't say anything and walked quietly ,after crossing that road he wanted to take off his hand from mine but I didn't allow it :
Me :Hey kiddo do you want to go somewhere for lunch ?
John :I don't want to eat anything .
Me :Seriously I'm craving,because of you I didn't have breakfast !Let's go for food !
He didn't want to take anything so I ordered for him a hamburger that a lot of kid in his age love.
Taking him to eat made me more hungrier :he didn't eat so I was like this too. He didn't take my hand this time so I did.
John :Why you took my hand ?
Me :Because I want to take a taxi,…oh that's !
John :What's the relation ?
Me :Just get in the taxi and stop asking !
We came back home and it was 5PM ,he quickly took his book and started doing his homework .I was like can I help you but I was afraid that he say no,so I wore my pajama and sat next to him.
Me :Hey kid…I mean John isn't your mom late ?
John :No !It's only 7PM…
Me :Really ?I thought that normal employee return home early
John :Not all !
Me :Do you spend your time alone at home ?
John :Yes
Me : Is that okay ?
John :I' m not a kid anymore…
Me :You are still a kid
John :I'm not !
Me :What’s wrong with being a kid ?I wish I could be s kid too,so I can cry and play and never worry about anything…
John :That mean I'm not a kid,I can’t cry or play all I have is study and obey my mom…
Me :What ?Why ?
John : If my mom get old I will have to take care of her and other stuff,I don't have time to play…I'm not a kid anymore !
He was looking at me with those eyes,a sharp eyes that I will never forget.He stood up and went to a room that he and her mom used when they hadn’t a home to go(it's a long story)….
Dad :What's wrong ?Did you say something wrong to him ?
Me :Dad,you know…I'm an awful person !A heartless, selfish a bad cop…an awful person
I had some tears on my eyes,then my dad hugged me :
Dad :No one is perfect,you know that right ?You are still learning from life,and no one has to judge you because we are all lack in many ways…
Me :But dad…what did I do with this kid ?All I have said is words that hurt !
Dad :You are a good person !
Me :How ?
Dad :You know that you are a good person when you regret what you did wrong !
Me :Seriously ?
Dad :Yes !
I kissed my dad's forehead and went to see John :
Me :Hey John…Are you reading something ?
John :Yes
Me :A superheroes story ?
John :A culture book
Me :Should I sit next to u ?
John :Do as you want !
He was laying on his bed and I was sitting next to him.It was kind of awkward moment,I didn't know how to talk to him.
John :Why are you talking to yourself…
Me :Wondering how can I talk to you ?
John :You don't have...(silence)I'm sorry !
Me :For what ?
John :Today was your day off, but you used it for me !
Me :I'm who to you ?
John :My aunt
Me :And so ?
John :So… ?
Me : I'm part of your family !
John :But you seemed angry…
Me :I know and I'm sorry.It's just that you know I have been working for days and this morning I was already angry coming from work !I'm sorry !So…we are equal ?
John :Yes…but don't lie anymore !
Me :What now ?
John :You lied to the doctor earlier,
Me :When… ?
John :You said that you love me like your own son…are you serious aunt ?
Me :I didn't lie,I will love you like if you are my own son
John :See ,you are addict !
Me :Hey kiddo I'm serious !So if you want something come to me .
John :Promise ?
Me :Yeah
We talked until both of us fell asleep.
