Stargazing

Perfect

The time between our first date and our next time seeing each other dragged on and on for what seemed like a millennia. During this time, it was Swim Season, so naturally I invited him to my meets so I could show off to him, which I did. But, in between those meets, I'll have to admit, I was lonely. Only, I couldn't say anything about it. I had to keep it to myself because in 6 months, he would be leaving for college, leaving Portland, and attending UCLA. I blocked those thoughts to the back of my mind, knowing that we still had so much time to build our love together.

On the Saturday that I saw him, it was raining. Not pouring rain, but a sprinkle hard enough to frizz my hair and make my mascara run a tad. We were going to see a movie, to be honest, I don't even remember the name, we've never made it through a movie together. I attempted to put effort into my appearance, with a sweater dress and boots, and as soon as I stepped outside in my backyard to test the weather, I immediately changed. I put grey leggings and a black hoodie, classic Louisa.

Eilers picked me up, yet again, in his mom van, and we made our way to the movie theater. I played our Fruity playlist, filled with all the songs that made us who we were, and we were singing and gazing into each other's eyes within seconds. But, no kiss. There was nothing, and I felt like I had done something wrong, or I wasn't looking nice enough for him, or just something about my physical appearance in that moment. I was mortified. 

We walked into the movie theater, and found our seats. The chairs reclined, which I was very excited about, however Eilers was apprehensive, attempting to hide it from me, but I could always see right through him. Always. Sometimes, he would hide things from me, just small things, how he was feeling, or what he was thinking, but no matter what I could always see right through his white lies.

During the previews, I tried to get him to kiss me, but nothing worked. I did a little smile, I nudged his arm multiple times, I even lifted up the arm rest separating our seats so I could sit even closer to him. And yet, nothing. And the movie dragged on.

Ultimately we left the movie early because it was awful, so we went to the Toys R Us right next to the movie theater and had the time of our lives. We ran down the aisles, laughing, shoving each other, and for myself, falling madly in love with the boy in front of me.

We sat down at the baby section, in 2 rocking chairs, and he leaned over, as if to say something, so I turned. He pressed his soft lips against mine, and kissed me. And I kissed him back. His hand went from my hand, to my cheek, cupping my face while he passionately and even desperately parted his lips with mine, absorbing each other. After a minute or 2, we pulled apart and just gazed into each other's eyes, smiling like idiots, as happy as could be. Then we walked back to the car.

I led us, walking back to the car. I was about to open my car door, and get inside when I was stopped.

"Halt," Eilers said, confidently "It's raining."

And before I could say anything, he wrapped me in his arms, and consumed me with his lips, pressed together against the side of the car, with the cool rain drops rolling down our faces.

We got in the car, and had time to spare. So I played our songs. And he leaned in, and kissed me yet again. And again. And again.

That night will be forever embedded in my mind. The night I truly began to fall in love with Eilers, the night I started to give him my heart. The night he gave our song 'Perfect' a whole new meaning to me. He was perfection to me, he was my perfect. He was my bright, North Star that I was constantly drawn to, stargazing in the night sky. He was it, and I was ready for our everlasting, crazy love adventure to begin.