Stargazing

Ocean Eyes

Month 4. June. June held the most important day of my life. Graduation. And I was so grateful to share that day with him, standing there right beside me, supporting me as I walked across that stage to start my life. 

The day of graduation was slow, until it came time to pick up Eilers from the train station. I saw him waiting for us to get him, and my face lit up in the hugest smile ever. I was ecstatic to see him. He hopped into the car and made small talk with my dad, and we went to the store to get some snacks for everyone. I love thinking about this day, it's funny. A while back I had given him a ceramic duck that we had previously named Benjamin, then renamed Eilers the Second, very fitting considering we had thought of that name for a real child. Next to Eilers the Second, we also had our plush peep doll that he used to ask me to prom with, with the name Joanna-Louisa. Cute, right? I know, we were headass and we were VERY cringe but that's what I loved about him. About us. Anywho, back to the story. So, he promised me he would bring our son to graduation, and he didn't, which resulted in a play argument and, God it was so funny. He made my face light up in a vivacious smile with every play fight word. I loved every second of it.

We then went to Canyon Park and took photos. The whole way up the hill Eilers and I were stifling our laughter, considering we had been there 2 weeks prior, and let's just say we weren't looking at the scenery, or taking pictures. I still have the photos though, stored away in my box of memories along with the broken shards of our beloved Eilers the Second, and his volleyball jersey. Number 37. And his final letter.

After I graduated, I met with Eilers and my family, and he gave me the hugest hug ever, the kind that makes you want to disappear for a minute and just let yourself be engulfed by the embrace. We made our way to dinner, where the only thing I could think about was how I was one step closer to my life with him. I was one milestone closer to life with my beloved, or at least what I thought was going to be life with my beloved.

That night, after taking him home and saying our goodbyes, I drove home, as happy as can be. All that was on my mind was Eilers and I in the future. Loving and laughing together, never to part. Or at least that's how it was, not anymore. No more will I get the privilege to get lost in his beautiful Ocean Eyes. Never again.