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17; falling for you

   i kept seeing flashes of what happened at nevis, that one horrid day. everytime the thunder struck i saw them. i saw james.

   i heard him.

   " lex, come on ." i feel john tug on my arm, we were at his place. i saw thomas aswell, he looked worried.

   " we're gonna get you in some warm clothes -" john rubs my shoulder as he talks to me.

   " we ?" thomas asked.

   " yes, get the fuck in here jefferson ."  john guided me to a room. it was freezing, but i couldn't pick out which room it was. my brain was going haywire.

   " siéntete ." john pushes me gently onto the bed, taking off my hoodie. that's when another loud boom comes, and it's a blast to the past, again.

   " stop !" i yell, it wasn't on purpose, it just came out. i was mad at myself, i wanted to drop kick my brain and tear my conscience to shreds.

   " hamilton, it's okay ." i hear thomas again, his voice sounded so comforting. but something kept telling me that it was all a lie, everyone would leave me like before.

   " im sorry ."

   " don't be, you're perfectly fine ." he grabs my hand, giving it a squeeze. i can't help but feel secure for some reason. his voice was deep and rich, and it was like velvet on your skin.

   " you're gonna be alright, im right here ." i nodded, feeling tears stream down my cheeks. it was emotionally overwhelming right now.

   a big crack fell from outside, i saw lights flash, then i saw all the water again. it was drowning me, taking me underneath the water. i felt the coldness of the current drag me under again. then another boom pummeled down and it was over. i was sitting on the bed again, thomas holding both of my hands. i was shaking like crazy, and i couldn't breathe.

   " hey, hey, you're fine, you're doing great. you're really strong y'know, just take deep breaths in ." i took a shakey breath in, trying to not pass out. i heard the rain on the window get harder, so i squeezed my eyes shut. my head was down and i could feel the water dripping from my hair to my thighs.

   " lex you wanna lay down or sum' ?"  i hear john say, immediately thomas let go of my hands, i looked up, for the first time.

   john stood at the doorway, looking at thomas meanwhile he looked down. john was always the jealous type when it came to anybody getting near me.

   " is he harassing you ?" john, for the first time sounded insensitive.

   " don't freak out, please, im not in the mood -"

   " what we're you doing jefferson ?" john interrupted me. he probably thinks thomas is still an ass, like before. i don't blame him, he hasn't stayed updated on the tea in my life.

   " i was comforting him, can i do that ?"

   " no -"

   " yes he can, you weren't even here, laurens, stop being so obsessive ." i sniffled, brushing my soggy hair back. john opened his mouth to say something, but closed it. im done with his attitude right now, now is not the time to be overly protective.

   " nevermind, i'll be in the living room ." he walks out. i rub my eyes and wipe my face when something nudges me.

   " tissue ." thomas blandly says, sitting next to me, still some space left in between us.

   " thank you ." i say softly. i clean my face off with the tissue. another cluster of thunder hits the sky, only making me jump.

   " i have one your jackets, do you want it ?" i look up to see john standing in the door frame again i nod my head before looking away again.

   " maybe you should try to rest after laurens gives you the jacket ." thomas softly says, hearing his voice honestly made me want to go to sleep.

   " yeah ." i lay my head on his shoulder, just finding it comfortable.

   i think i might have a crush on him. a teenager, highschool rom-com, type crush. who would've thought that opposites attract?

   " laurens is gonna get mad ." thomas whispers to me.

   " he'll get over it ." i say back, closing my eyes.

   then i felt a million times better, listening to his heart beating. i felt it beating through his arms, which was odd, but i didn't question it. i slowly drifted to sleep.

   we're gonna be alright.
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a/n: i liked this song with the chapter. it just sets the mood perfectly in my opinion.

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