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( WARNING: TRIGGERING MOMENTS AND MATURE AUDIENCES ONLY )
The motel room smelled like sweat and alcohol, Quenlin eyes were interrupted by the sun that beamed into the room. Quenlin was about to get up but was trapped by a pair of arms. She look behind her and saw Tom. She smiled as she got back into bed.
Quenlin started to remember the events of last night, she started to blush as she thought of her and tom spending time together.
Quenlin stared at Tom as he slept. Quenlin played with his messy hair as she admired him. Before Tom could fully wake up, Quenlin pretending she wasn't staring. She closed her eyes, so she could look like she was sleeping.
Tom opened his eyes and saw Quenlin. He admired her, before he could kiss her head someone came into their room.
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As everyone got back home, the girls talked about last night. "Sooo how are you with Tom?" Zendaya said as Laura and Ronnie turned towards Quenlin.
"And don't say 'were just friends' because you guys practically had heart eyes for each other last night." Ronnie said as Zendaya agreed. "I don't know" Quenlin said as all the girls looked at her confused.
"What do you mean i don't know? You guys obviously like each other. "How do you know he likes me? Okay we smiled but so was everyone else. I just think he sees me as a friend." Quenlin said as she was started to be filled with sorrow. "Quen, i don't think so" Laura said as Ronnie agreed. "Yeah! you guys have so much chemistry." Ronnie said as Zendaya laughed.
Quenlin smiled as Zendaya gave her a reassuring smile. Quenlin was always insecure, it all started when she was with Pete. How he would look like he wasn't have a good time, or we would blame her for not doing something.
She always thought she wasn't good enough. Quenlin always thought it was her fault and how people didn't like her.
She thought tom would've regretted it and he would never talk to her again. As Zendaya dropped her off to her apartment, Quenlin dropped her bags and went to her bathroom.
Quenlin looked at her self and started to cry. She thought the only reason why boys hang around with her was for advantages and getting what they want. Quenlin thought the unthinkable and grabbed her razor.
Quenlin cried at the agony of each cut she made. As she was finishing up, she took of her clothes and took a shower. As Quenlin was washing herself, she was crying at herself. Quenlin thought of how much a destruction she is. Quenlin cried and cried as she sat under the water.
As she got out the shower, she grabbed some clothes from her dresser. She put on a oversized shirt and she put her hair in a ponytail. Quenlin started unpacking her bags that she left in her living room.
She decided to clean her whole apartment as she unpacked her bags. Quenlin saw some polaroids that were in the pockets of her bag. It was pictures from last night, Quenlin smiled as she read the caption of one of the polaroid. "Thought you might like this one xx" Quenlin realized it was from Zendaya.
Quenlin smiled as she looked up and saw it was her and tom looking across each other from the fishbowl.
Quenlin's smile dissapeared when she came across the cuts on her wrists. Quenlin started thinking insecurely and stopped cleaning. Quenlin looked at the time and saw it was 10 o'clock.
She decided to just go to sleep and forget about it in the morning. As Quenlin got in the bed, she couldn't sleep with all the negative thoughts in her head. Quenlin started crying at the fact of how thought Tom might regret spending time with her.
