The Dauntless

Some Fuckboy

"So,this is it?" Gin nervously stood behind Alexandra,taking in the beauty of her hair,the beautiful natural waves that fell down her back mostly except now they were crumpled in one messy bun trying to escape.His fingers itched to take that long lost lock of blonde voluminous hair out of her face and touch it,grip it,put his whole hand in it and not give a rat's ass about messing it up.He was never nervous.He had remembered a various times that he stood in front of a gun,and even then he wasn't fucking nervous.It was her presence,her body,her voice,the way she looked at him,even the way she didn't..which confused the fuck outta him.

"Take off your shoes,I'm not one of the rich kids." Her voice demanded in a stern voice.Damn him if it didn't turn him on..He started to take off his shoes as she unlocked the door to her house which looked nice,homy,just the way Gin remembered it to be.She walked in right in front of him showing him where to put his shoes as she did the same.To say that the house was clean would honestly be a big fucking understatement.

Everything was polished,clean and beautiful.He tried to look around find a flaw,didnt know why he was doing that tho,but he tried to find one thing that was out of place but he couldn't...or perhaps he thought about it too soon.

His eyes met a figure,a guy,yupp,of course he knew him,he would come around to the bar quite often,with Alex and his twin sister that was messing with Mickey.

His legs sprawled out on the couch and his long nest of blonde sunny hair wass all over the couch cushions.Dark circles sorrounded his eyes and he was pale..like,overdose pale?

Too soon?

Well,shit,he was being jealous.Jealous of a guy friend that she had..who was in her house?He was good looking sure,not that muscular,more like nerdy and what girls would find *cute*.

On the table next to the sleeping fella were some papers,two phones,laptop,bottle of scotch and an ashtray with some half smoked cigarettes in it.He was nervous before he fell asleep.He could've been her boyfriend but Gin wouldn't allow himself any kind of pessimism because that was just plain fucking torture to him.

"Oh my god...oh my god.Alex?Alex wake up!Quick,give me a glass of water!" Alex?They are both named Alex?Well,the fate sure did wanna play games with Gin.He poured some water in the kitchen spotting the take out boxes of eaten food,not many,but still.He glanced over at the couch in the living room as the guy,Alex,fluttered his eyes open,fucking barely..he was hungover out of his mind and Gin could almost feel the pain in his head as he clunged to it for his life.
He handed Alexandra the water and sat down on a sofa,crossing his ankle over his knee watching the scene unravel before his eyes.

The kid had small moles over his skin,not that many,but just enough to get your attention,his blonde hair longer than Gin's,just bellow his ears shining just like sun,but he wasnt gay or anything,but his hair was almost like Alexandra's..they could have been cousins..or perhaps it was just his brain comforting him for a low blow that's about to come.

Her hands looked so natural so in sync with his body movements,like touching for them wasn't a big deal or anything really,they looked 150% comfortable with each other and it was starting to scare Gin..on an emotional level..because Gin had no fucking idea that his emotions could come up to the surface like they did around her..He cried for her in the hospital for fuck sakes,a stranger!
Well not entirely..but still.He let a gay guy hug him,like that's fucking manly.Cross that off my fucking bucket list-Gin thought to himself.

"Where...where have you been,I've been so scared.I called the fucking police,useless pieces of shit,I called the hospital,I called everyone I knew!I've been here for three days and I couldn't fucking sleep..I..I.." his hysteria was something Gin immediately recognized in his voice.Fear.He could almost taste it on his fucking tongue.So she meant something to him.

"Calm down,calm down..I'm here.I'm not going anywhere,I'm never gonna leave you..Trust me,Alex,everything is fine,everything's gonna be just fine.."
Her hands trembled as they combed through his hair with their fingers..Gin could almost die of envy,right here,right now..but of course he did what he had to do.He held his composure.The guy rocked back and forth with his head burried in the crook of her neck,his back muscles threatened to pop out of the dress shirt he was wearing..guess he wasn't skinny after all,just tall.

"How could you leave like that,I thought something happened to you..How could you do this to me?For fuck sakes,auch,and who the fuck is this,he looks like the fucking dark side of Jack Nicholson,what's with the eyebrow asshole?You couldn't call me to tell me you were fucking him and staying with him as well?" He got up from the couch,almost tripped onto his own shoes and he held onto a wall while crouching on the floor and squinting with his eyes trying to realise what was going on.She crouched next to him taking him by the arm so she could probably drag him to lay down again..this dude probably didn't know if he was still drunk or hungover.I am the darkside of Jack Nicholson?The eyebrow thing..what the fuck?

"No,no,it wasn't like that,I swear..Alex,I swear,I'm so sorry I put you through all of this...it will never happen again." Tears poured down Alexandra's face as she took a step towards this Alex guy.He emmediatelly backed away throwing on his jacket and taking his phones off the table,then combing through his hair with his hand couple of times because of how fucked up he wasHe closed his eyes almost wondering if he should say what he was about to say,and Gin swore to himself he would kick his ass if he hurts her..which he will because obviously she *more than likes him*.

"You know,I love you more than your fucking dad does,I found the drunken piece of shit on the street and asked him about you.I found him but I couldn't find you!What does that tell me?You didn't wanna be fucking found,that's what it tells me...and..I just,can't comprehend the fact that you throw away every worry your best friend,your family of 20 years has for you for a fuckboy you stayed with for three days.How is that even possible?Goodbye Alex." He furiously turns around and heads for the door.Alexandra is in tears,how could she not be?

How do you tell someone who loves you,you almost died and they had no idea?

It's some hurtful shit.

"No,no,Alex come back I swear..Alex!Alex,please stop,that's not what happened,I swear..Alex..." she runs after him but he's already pulled on his leather jacket,and all she could think about was probably,'is he cold?' Gin walked out of the living room following her to the hallway.

She sat there,legs to her chest,door opened by her side,crying into the palms of her hands,and sobbing.
Gin took one last look at the outside and figured the guy must havr walked because he hadn't heard a car or a motorcycle.He shut the door and it seems that only saddened Alexandra more that the dick was gone.He'll be back.They've known each other for twenty years..He has to be back.

"C'mon let's go get you cleaned.Shhh..It's okay,I know you couldn't tell him and that's okay."

Gin picks her up in his arms and she rests her head and her arms around his body.The big muscular body that was taking care of her..Picking up all of her pieces,gluing her together.

..and yet,
Nothing could shake off the feeling of being abandoned by someone who deeply loved her,someone who's soul was half of hers and the other way around.Her body ached.Ached for Alex.She didn't get to touch him enough,her skin hasn't fed enough of his against it,and her head was all cloudy,because at this moment,she didnt want Gin...
She wanted Alex,she needed Alex.