TERE LIYE

Part 9

“I am yours and I will be yours, forever”- Gauri

Gauri Kumari Sharma

It has been a week since I am witnessing this side of my hus.. Omkara. I still don’t have guts to still give him my already broken heart once again. I don’t have the confidence to love him exactly the way I used to love him two years ago. These years have changed a lot in my life. I have learned to stand up on my already broken legs multiple times after falling, without anyone’s help. And now he is there claiming to take all my pain away with mere a try and me being the one in lo.. like have already started to trust him. I don’t know myself what has happened to me or what took over me to tell him that yes I do trust him but yes I did.

And surprisingly he didn’t disappoint me. He is trying his level best to do it.  I can see it. I can see how much he is trying to be a good father to Anaya and frankly I am happy with that much only. At least he is trying to mend his relationship with his daughter and being a mother, this is enough for me.  But it seems like it isn’t enough for him. He is trying t win my heart too; but little does he know that an already broken heart can never be mended. He was the one who himself crushed it under the feet of his undying ego every single day I was with him. I would not say that I regretted living with him but yes what I would say is I don’t know will I ever be able to give my heart to him or not.

“Maa... Maa” came Anaya running to me.  “dadaaa... is taking me to park” she said jumping and clapping her hand in excitement. I smiled at her. “Good” I said caressing her cheek. “Maa.. maa come... come...” she held my hand and started dragging me with her. “Maa isn’t coming princess” I heard his voice from the door as he stood with his hands clasped at the back and eyes trained on me. “Why?” Anaya pouted. “Because maa isn’t well” he sounded sweet. Too sweet for that matter as I rolled my eyes. “But I want maa. I won’t go” Anaya said tying her hands to her chest.

Stubborn girl. Yeah just like you.

“Anu, don’t talk like that. Dadaa said naa that he is taking you. Be a good girl and go with him bachcha” I said holding her shoulder. “No” and she pouted again. “Anu.. I said maa isn’t okay bachcha. She can’t go” he said tilting Anaya’s chin to him. “Then I Anaya too no go” I rolled my eyes at her stubbornness.  “Anuuuu...” said Omkara in a too calmed tone when I know he would have shouted by now.

Does being parent actually change your attitude? Probably

“Noooooo... Nooooo..  Noooooooooo” she shouted and sharply tilted her head in the other direction away from me and him. “Okay I am coming” I sighed. What way did I have? “But your leg?” he questioned. “I did it before too. Remember I was alone for these two years?” I asked him genuinely. And I could see his face falling as I regretted saying that. “I.. I didn’t mean...” he cuts me “I know I know. It will take time to forget it” he again answered in the same calm tone.

“But how will you go?” he asked with concerned eyes. “You aren’t even allowed to get up from this bed” he completed. “I don’t know. But I can’t see her like this. She was too upset” I looked at Anaya who was now happily playing with her Mr bear. “I know but still. How will you manage?” I simply shrugged. “Uff woman” he closed his eyes and shook his head. “Okay let me think of something” I looked at her. “I am not using a crutch or a wheelchair. I don’t want to look weak” I cleared gaining a look from him; which was anything but anger. “And I wasn’t planning also” he said as my eyebrows furrowed. “What do you mean? Don’t tell me you are planning to stroll around picking me bridal style and he smirked. “No... no way” and he picked me up “Chalein  princess” and I saw Anaya running towards us. “Okay dadaa” she smiled with her teddy in her arms.