『 IF 』
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Yeseul gets out from Jinyoung's house frustratedly. It's not like she don't believe them, she decided not to believe them. She wants to deny it, she have reasons. She actually know it herself that Daniel is after her, but she decides to believe Daniel even just for a little.
Because she wants to try to understand Daniel, she wants to dig out if it's true that Daniel is behind everything just like what she expects, Yeseung's death.
She wants to find it out, that's why she didn't let Daniel being kick out from school even though he deserve it. She feels scared, honestly she is. But that's the only way she can think of, which is be close with him.
"I'm sorry" She mumbled alone and walks aways from the apartment regretfully. She does feel sorry, especially towards Jihoon. She realizes how much that guy cares about her, she feels more bad after knowing that he got bullied and it's because of her, because he tried to protect her.
And Jinyoung, she tried to bring him back but they ended up had a fought.
Yeseul gets into a train and sits beside the window. She sigh softly and stares outside the window emotionally. She can't help but to think about what happened.
"Do you want to say that Yeseung died because of you?"
"Yes!"
She immediately shakes her head. "No" she refused strongly. "I want to believe it's not because of him" she added actually still with mixed feelings.
She thinks about it for the whole journey and finally she arrived at her destination, Daegu.
She didn't plan anything but her feet bring her home. And this time, to the place she haven't visit for a long time.
Yeseung's grave.
Once she stands right in front of it, she immediately cries without any warning. She slowly kneels down and cries even heavier.
"Yeseung... Yeseung-ah" She wailed sorrowfully.
"Can't you comeback?"
"I...I promise.. if you comeback I will be better"
"I won't make you sad, I will listen to you"
"Please....please!!" She mourned, she screamed as loud as she can.
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"Yeseul-ah, you know how much I love you right?" Yeseung suddenly said while staring at Yeseul who's doing her homework.
"Are you crazy?" Yeseul immediately said while totally ignored him.
"I am, because I can't love any other girl like how I love you." He said, he can't be any serious than that.
Yeseul finally looked at him, who sat on the bed beside the study table. "You crazy, stupid, moron." She said coldly. "Don't you have any better thing to do? I'm busy." She added and focused on her homework again.
"Like seriously Yeseul can you live without me?" Yeseung kept on asking.
"Why not?" Yeseul replied without thinking about it seriously.
"Even though I will go far far away?" He asked again. "Where will you go? You can't go anywhere without me" Yeseul smirked.
"Death, death can separate us" He suddenly said. "It's not like you will die tomorrow, stop talking nonsense." Yeseul replied carelessly.
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And that was the last conversation they had before Yeseung retuned to Seoul. And that was the last time Yeseul saw him before he died in front of her.
Just if she know what will happen to him a week later...
She regretted it so much, she shouldn't replied him that way. She should have treat him better, if only she know it was her last time. Just if only she know.
"I miss you,"
"I'm sorry..."
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Jihoon returns to the dorm, he gets into the room and immediately can feel the emptiness. No one is there.
"Where is she?" He mumbled and sigh softly. He can't help but to feel worried, he thought she already there, he thought she will return to the dorm right away.
Jihoon can't stay still, he sigh once again and almost want to open the door to get out again. But the door being opened first and it's her, Yeseul.
Jihoon startled, and stares at her carefully. She doesn't look okay, she looks pale and tired. "Are you okay?" He asked and almost want to touch her shoulder but Yeseul quickly push his hand away strongly.
Jihoon staggered, Yeseul walks away to her bed and immediately lay down without saying anything more, left Jihoon in dumbfounded.
"Where did you come from?" But the guy decided not to give up this time.
Yeseul didn't answer him and just close her eyes tightly. Jihoon walks to his bed and finally have a sit while facing her.
"Did something happened?" He asked again.
He waits, but still no response.
Jihoon close his eyes and take a deep breath, tries to calm down. He usually can't control his anger that easily, but he tries for her.
"Let me just ask you one question" Jihoon starts to open his mouth again, he uttered it very softly.
"Why?"
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