『 FAULT 』
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"After he left that night, he never return anymore" Jinyoung told Yeseul everything about what happened. "It's my fault" Jinyoung continued sorrowfully while staring at the floor blankly, his tears can't stop dropping. Yeseul who sit besides him lost for words, she can't say anything.
She need to choose, to take this situation rationally or emotionally. To think about it, they did had a fought but Jinyoung didn't kill him but because of Jinyoung, Yeseung went out that night.
Yeseul shakes her head and look at Jinyoung closely, he's truly regretting it, once again her soft heart just can't take it. She pats his back softly trying to make him calm down.
"I didn't mean it to say it,"
"I didn't mean to say that i hate him"
"I didn't mean it when i say want to kill him"
"I was just too emotionally unstable"
"I'm scared, what if he gets hurt from what i said?"
"That's why he immediately get out from the dorm that night?"
"What if he seriously died because of me?"Jinyoung begins his overthinking anxiously, he keeps on questioning nonstop and blaming himself for what happened. Yeseul feels bad to see him that way, "don't blame yourself, it's not your fault." She comforts him gently. To see his situation, she just can't help it but to comfort him even though her other side tells her that Yeseung won't go out that night if not because of Jinyoung and that cruel things will never happen but her another side tells her that it's not his fault, there's someone and something else that made Yeseung that way not Jinyoung.
Yeseul enters her own world and fight with herself, meanwhile Jinyoung still in his hollow. Both of them stay silent for some while until Jinyoung suddenly rises up and look at her. "Because of that too i get scared to be close with you" He suddenly said. "You resemble him a lot that i keep thinking about him and that night" he continued really emotionally. Yeseul just stares at him silently, waiting for more to come out from his mouth.
"I'm scared that if get too close to you i will bring more danger to you,"
"What happened to you that day,"
"When i visited you at the hospital"
"It hurts me so bad to see you like that,"Jinyoung slowly looks away again, his face looks so anxious while his hands keep on playing with each other uneasily.
"I suddenly remember, that next day after that night when i visited Yeseung at the hospital"
"What happened that night keep on appearing in my dream like a nightmare, telling me it's all my fault"He suddenly seems hard to breath while explaining it. Yeseul keeps on patting his back, still trying to make him calm down.
"That's why, I'm scared what if what if you too will never return just like him"
"I can't handle it so i make a decision to stay away from you,"
"I....I seriously didn't mean to leave you just like that Seulgi,"
"I...i-i'm just scared.."Jinyoung looks at Yeseul once again emotionally with teary eyes. He's truly sincere with what he's trying to deliver that it reaches Yeseul deeply. Yeseul gets emotional, she carefully pulls him closer and hug him. "I'm sorry for misunderstanding you" she said, that's what she really want to say at that moment.
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Jihoon leans on the wall next to the window at the back of the classroom. He keeps on staring outside blankly while crossing his arms together. He can't stop thinking about the conversation he had with Jonghyun about Jinyoung. He got to know that Jinyoung told him about what happened that night before Yeseung went back to Daegu.
"Jinyoung's reaction when he saw Yeseung at the hospital for the last time kinda same when he saw Yeseul at the hospital that day"
"I think Jinyoung realise the similarities between them"
"This can be one of the reason why he suddenly act this way"
What Jonghyun told him that morning keep on flashing back in his mind. He's trying to find something in it.
"What's exactly the reason? Why does he have to blame himself for this?" Jihoon suddenly mumbles alone out of frustration. "Why does he have to feel guilty?" He continues to questioning more. "W-wait.." He stands up properly and quickly moves his sight to Jinyoung's empty seat. "Does that mean he actually know Yeseul's true identity? That's why he feels bad? Because he actually know that Yeseung is her brother?" He looks pretty shook up at his own assumptions, he freezes at the same place for some seconds.
"Eyy no way, I believe no one know about her, Yeseung has told me that" Jihoon mumbles silently and shakes his head then slowly move to his seat that just some meters away.
Jihoon remembers Yeseung ever told him that he never show Yeseul's true identity to anyone here because he wanted to protect her from any bad things that might happen.
"That's how much he loves her." Jihoon continues to mumble alone while still staring outside the window.
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"You know, Yeseul... She doesn't want to come to seoul?" Jihoon asked while stirring his iced americano with the straw, trying not to make his question sounds serious and obvious. Yeseung who sat in front of him just look at him with his smiley face, "i told her not to come" he quickly replied very simply. "Why?" Jihoon looked at him with his eyebrows up. "Seoul is too dangerous for Yeseul, besides I don't really want to show the school about her" he replied seriously with frown on his face.
Jihoon barely understand but don't know how to ask more, he just nodded his head awkwardly and looked at his coffee again while still stirring it slowly with a lot of things insides his mind. "You know, being a student council is not easy, some might take revenge on me for what i ever did to them and I don't want Yeseul to involve in this." Yeseung suddenly explained calmly.
"If you want to see Yeseul that much, why did you asked me not to tell her about you, why did you want to hide yourself from her?" Yeseung suddenly added made Jihoon suddenly cough. Yeseung giggled and left Jihoon in awkwardness then he slowly wiped his mouth with the tissue and took a sip of his coffee while mesmerising his friend's face.
"I will go meet her myself, when I'm ready"
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