Heated // Grayson Dolan

ELEVEN

Grayson had just left, we watched a couple more movies after the Spiderman movie. Nothing really interesting happened, but we had fun.

I hummed the lyrics to riptide softly to myself.

"Lately I've been down to the riptides, taken away from the dark side, I wanna be your left hand man."

I smiled gently. Ever since Grayson claimed it as our song, I've loved that song even more than I already had. It reminded me of Grayson and all the lightness he shined onto my, what used to be dark, life. It was my new favorite song although it came out a long time ago.

I walked, lightly on my feet, towards the kitchen to grab a chocolate bar from Dallas' "hidden" stash of candy, little did he know I knew exactly where it was. I smirked to myself as I took a bite of it.

I could hear my phone buzzing from the living room again. Figuring it was just Dallas or Grayson I answered without checking the caller ID.

"Hello?" I answered as I plopped onto the couch with the phone to my head.

"Hey, listen, I wanted to give you some time since I called earlier. You didn't give me real chance to explain myself."

I rolled my eyes, realizing it was Parker.

"I really don't want to hear it."

"I don't care, I need to tell you this!" he basically screamed into my ear.

"O-okay"

"I was a fucking idiot, Sydney, seriously. I didn't want to lead you on with our relationship because I lost feelings and was getting bored. I didn't want to break your heart but I felt like it would be worse if I had waited longer—"

"'I didn't want to break your heart' my ass, Parker. I remember every single detail from that night vividly. Every single fucking detail. You spent the entire night making me feel special just at the end to say, "Yeah, uh, I'm fucking bored of you, so we're done. I don't want to be chained up to your boring ass.' Don't you dare tell me you didn't want to hurt me, because if that was one of your priorities you would have let me down easy."

He stayed silent.

"Yeah, that's what I fucking thought." I said as I peeled away from the phone to hang up.

"Wait, wait, wait" he shouted quickly.

"What?" I groaned.

"I shouldn't have done that. I regret it every day."

"Yeah, you sure do a lot to prove it. You apologized over text, and then ignored me? Then you went on to not even go to Audrey's funeral? Yeah, Parker, you sure are showing a lot of regret." I was fed up with him.

"Syd," I scrunched up my nose, I didn't like how he was using Grayson's nickname. "I was being a coward. I couldn't face the fact I cause one of my closest friends to die. And I couldn't face the fact I caused you to feel so much regret and pain over it. Sydney, believe it or not, I still care about you. And I'm calling to apologize. All I want is for you to accept my apology."

"Sorry, Parker. But you hurt me way too much for me to do that."

I hung up the phone and sighed as I allowed myself to fall over on the couch.

Grayson had just told me to tell him if Parker was bothering me, but I couldn't bring myself to doing it. I didn't want him to get upset, or angry, or anything like that. He was my light; it's hard for a light to shine onto other people when the light itself is in a bad mood. I needed Grayson to remain happy.