A Cup Of Tea

a cup of regrets

I don't mean for this to become one of those depressing books that you read at 3am while blasting old MCR songs so I'll try to keep this chapter from getting too dark but lets face it:
We all fucked up at one point or the other...or maybe a bit more often than that.

However making bad decisions wouldn't be that much of a pain in the ass (unless they are real bad and happen to get you involved with the Mafia or just straight up killed but that's real bad luck as well then) if they wouldn't come with their little friend:

REgReT

Because lets be honest a bad decision isn't really a bad one if you don't think about the other option(s) you would've had. Just like there isn't really bad pizza if you only ever tasted one and have nothing to compare it to. But as soon as you walk past another pizzeria and smell the far more delicious creations they sell the pizza you ate earlier suddenly seems like a bad choice. Sadly you're already full so there is no point in trying another one even if it looks a lot better.
As much as that realisation might hurt you can learn from your mistake and save that place for next time. However there are other life decisions that have a slight more complicated aftermath. And that's where the what ifs start haunting you. Sometimes they'll pop up in your head right after you chose to do what you chose to do but sometimes they stay quiet for a few weeks/months or maybe even years and then suddenly on a peaceful afternoon they'll start screaming...

"What on earth were you thinking?"

"OK...but seriously...WHY??"

"...and this century's stupidity award goes toooooo-!"

See if those would be things that you could learn from like ordering pizza from a mediocre place or forgetting your headphones at school it wouldn't be that bad but how am I supposed to go back to primary school and fix the friendships I messed up there?? (Believe me I even tried googling those people to see if there was a way I could go back to having contact with them /yea that didn't work what a sUrPriSE ) And yet my brain won't let things 9yo me did and didn't do go.

Obviously there are regrets that haunt you even more than just losing a bunch of potential quality friends but that's as dark as I am gonna go for now.

Anyways I feel like this whole thing should end with a somewhat positive input. So as mentioned earlier all those negative feelings won't really solve a problem you already created. However they ideally will teach you to be more cautious (or the complete opposite depending on the type of regrets you have) when making decisions in the future.
Any lesson learned will eventually benefit you later on. I know that isn't much but it is something and something is always better than nothing !

Good luck making better decisions next time,
a bitxh that lost more friends than she regained

*low key a hint like hmu