Misguided

5. Flair of fire

As Loki starts to lean in I freeze once again. He sees my reaction and stops, leaning back. If he wants to kiss me and I want to kiss him, why didn't I do anything?! I lean in myself closing my eyes, but I am stopped by something else than his lips. I open my eyes and see that Loki had stopped me with two fingers. He says "I'm sorry, but I can't do that to you." I immediately pull back really embarrassed. My cheeks flame red. I need to get out from this situation. He didn't want to kiss me! I stand up from the swing and start running away. Loki tries to grab my hand but only brushes it a little. He calls my name, but I keep running. I don't want him to see me right now. I can't believe I embarrassed myself like that.
From nothing Loki suddenly appears in front of me and I quail. I scram and fall back only to be partly catched, because when I go down he went with me.
I look up and see Loki somewhat holding me even though we were both on the ground and another Loki standing. The Loki standing starts to slowly disappear. I look at the only Loki remaining with the most confused look on my face. I breath heavily from the running and so does Loki. Loki says "I apologise for scaring you, but it seemed to be the only option on stopping you from running." I actually have never seen magic and illusions this close. I wonder what else Loki can do with his magic or what other powers he has. I only now noticed how close he was, partly hovering on top of me. My insides are burning, but his cool colored eyes slowly calm me down. "Apology accepted." He let's out a chuckle and his eyes travel on my lips. "If I let you go will you promise that you won't run away?.. Or maybe I should steal one kiss, just to make sure you will come back for it..." He slowly approaches and I give in the temptation. His lips gently touch mine. He slips his hand under my neck to deepen the kiss. He's still really gentle almost like he's afraid he will break me. Like I'm made of glass. Kissing Loki just feels so much more loving and caring compared to Thor. What I remember from Thor's kiss is that it was rough, messy and a lot of tongue. They are compleat opposites.
As I get even more comfortable with the situation I place my hands around him. His hand lowers from my neck downwards. It travels to my shoulder, then on my side. It makes a move closer to my breast, but stops just before. His hand only brushes my breast a little as he smoothly moves it to my waist. He wanted to kiss me before, but he didn't. Now he obviously wanted more than the kiss, but changed his mind just before. I wonder what's holding him down. Maybe I shouldn't push it, he tells me when he is capable of doing it.
Loki slowly lifts his lips from mine and looks at me smiling. A small "woah" escapes from his mouth making me smile too. "Will you stay a little bit longer?" He bites his lip while asking. I really want to, but I think I need to take care of my mother. She probably hasn't eaten anything the whole day and now to think of, it neither have I. "I really can't, even if I wanted to. I'm sorry, but I need to go take care of my sick mother." His smile frowns a bit, but he says "No need to apologise. She needs you more than I do. Let me at least walk you to the town." I smile and answer "I would love that." He stands up lifting me up with his strong arms as well. Even after we stand up, he keeps his arms around my waist and we just look into each other's eyes is silence. A nice quiet moment that felt like just a couple seconds, but probably took minutes. He gives a small kiss on my forehead and says "We should go." I nod and we start walking.
Loki held my hand the whole way to the edge of the town. I knew he couldn't go longer than that, because he would get recognized. It felt awful to know we had to split up, but I know we will meet again. Don't know when or how, but I know he will come to meet me. As we start to see the people through the trees Loki stops. He spins me around to a hug that leads into kiss. A soft and tender kiss. He presses his forehead on mine to stop the kiss and say "I hope to see you again, if that is what you desire?" I hug him tighter and say "Of course!" He laughs happily as we separate from the hug. "Until next time." He says and I repeat it to him. I turn my back on him and started walking towards the town. I look behind me to see him one last time, but he had already disappeared. Still a smile stayed on my face the whole way to home.

As I come in I greet my mother. She greets back and says "There's a letter for you on the table. It was delivered, by what seemed like a royal guard, but I might have been delusional." A big loud "What!" escapes my lips. "Calm down young lady and don't get your hopes up. My sight might have been wrong and there's no matter for the Royals to letter us." I feel a flair in my heart. It could be either one of them! Or it could be a angry relative wanting to banish me. Oh... I don't know if I want to open it anymore. What if it's something bad? "I walk to the table and look at the letter. It had been sealed with the King's stamp. I look at my mother, who looked rather exited for me to open it. I don't want to open it in front of her. What if I smile or laugh or cry? "I have a letter opener in my room." I leave to my own peaceful room where I could show all the emotions without anyone seeing my face. As I open the letter slowly, my eyes first travel to the bottom left corner searching for a name. It's from Thor! What a relief!... or is it? What if the maid never got to change the sheets? If this is about me being a virgin... Okay, I need to calm down and just read the letter.

-To Caitlin-

"I was really disappointed to see you gone this morning and I can't wrap my head around why you left. I was hoping to spend more time with you, but you were already gone.
I didn't know how to get in touch with you other than sending you a letter, hope you don't mind.
I would be delighted if you pleased to see me again. Please, come to me tomorrow night at the King's garden. I deserve at least an explanation of why."

    Love, Thor