Careless.

thirteen

¡Stupid decisions, grow up already!

<<Allura' POV>>

" stop what your doing, give me that!" Elliot shouts trying to grab the bottle of Gin in my hand, I chunk it down finishing it "LET ME SINK IN PEACE" I shout for the ninth time. " come on!! It's the fifth bottle stop or you'll get hurt badly" "hurt?! Wow how do you think I've lived for the past four years, My mom was beaten to near death.... and died in the hospital in front of my eyes. I was fucking seventeen!!! And five years later this right here is my bloody life!!" I shout in pure rage and frustration.

"Allura I'm—" "Sorry right?? Say something else I heard that before" I interrupt, as my tone of voice lowers, into a sad sound. I need more of this crap to gulp down I can feel it  calming me down, but not making me forget the endless pain, I reach for the other bottle on the dining table but Elliot takes it instead.

"Stop your drunken self in consuming more" I look down as I throw the empty bottle across the room causing it to break, and look at him with tears threatening to fall"y-you wanted to....." hiccup "see me dull and lifeless" hiccup "here I am, what now??" I tilt my head to the side blankly staring at his own. He is heartbroken why? By seeing me like this "Don't do this to yourself" he says with tears in his eyes, hands trembling.

"Do what I'm just finishing what you people started" I break into a painful smile, he freezes as tears flow from his eyes, "so you care??" The alcohol is already in my system, so I can't think straight. I laugh at his face and take the bottle from his hands "Don't do this— you aren't thinking straight." His voice is cracking "shut up it hurts.... my heart and my brain you are making it worst" I giggle. But it's cold.

I throw my heels across the room, and drink the poisonous liquid in the bottle. Slowly loosing balance I look over to the crouched little boy breaking in tears clutching to the fabric of my pants. "I said stop!" I wiggle my leg walking towards the door grabbing my keys.

I storm out laughing, as the alcohol gets to my head. But I don't give in to passing out, I dial to my brother he picks up.

#ongoing phone call~

Me: BROOOOO IT HURTS

Nate : what hurts??

Me: everything, my head my heart, my legs I can't even walk straight ~ (playful tone of voice)

Nate: are you drunk?? Where are you??

Me: too manyyyy questions sss *flying down the stairs* (playful tone of voice)

Nate: I'll call someone to pick you up and trace your phone! Go home

Me: I'm calling to inform Mr. Eaton that I might be found dead my five am.

Nate: what are you even saying?? Don't fool around it's one fucking am!!

Me: I'm serious (drop dead serious tone of voice)
Love you ~~

Nate: Grow up already—

#end of phone call

"He sounded mad" I mumble "oh well". I waltz over to my car and get in, sloppily inserting the keys and driving in zig zags to my apartment, I stop my car in the middle of the road and walk over to my bare footed apartment's building.

"Miss are you ok?" A random guy ask smirking " never been better" I stumble foreword and backwards, it's not a random guy it's Finn "thanks for asking now fuck off" I say as I throw up near his feet. "Bitch!" He curses " yes but not yours" I lick my lips and walk to my apartment floor. Holding my head laughing insanely.

I barge in my apartment after slamming on the password, I hear faint moans of a pair in my room "of course" I smile and drag myself to my room's door picking up the gun placing it on my Gucci belt. "Babe~" the woman moans, sending chills down my spine. I open the door as the scenario is Victor fucking isadora my smile grows wider. She gasps. I'm not even surprised.

"And you call me a whore" I chuckle, there's too much alcohol in my system that I don't even blush when I see a stood up naked Victor in front of me. I walk closer to him dragging him closer to me "I want you to have me make me yours" I grip on his hair tighter as he leans in and kisses my neck hungrily.

"You wanted me all along you bastard" I tilt my head to the side making him savor my neck, as his free travels to grope my ass, the man moans but I don't. Disgusting asshole. Isadora looks angry I just smile at her she storms out of the apartment with her clothes on. "Why now... mmh... not before" he asks between moans as the hand that was on my ass went on my boob, grasping on it.

( A/N:Ok ok ok that's too much) I pull his head from my neck and jaw to my own lips. "Men like you like it hard nah??" I bite his lip hard and he groans in pain. My free hand pulls out the gun and touches the cold surface to his 'Pride'. "What are you doing... hurry up and unzip" he whines.

I scoff "you wish" "what?" He looks at his 'pride' which the gun is aimed at "whore what do you think you're doing" I laugh at his tone of voice. His scared his hand leaves my chest reaching for his 'pride' "if you dare I'll pull the trigger"

His eyes are blood shot open "u wouldn't" he looks at my eyes, I tighten my grip on the gun and slowly put my finger around the trigger. "You know it's humanly impossible to have two dicks.... attached to one body" I begin. He stares at the gun.

"You managed to become a guy with two.... what's the feeling??" I smirk, he tries to move and looks at my eyes like someone who just saw their life flash before their eyes. "Let me help you become human again" I suggest.

"Bitch you w—

"What I wouldn't??" I let out a hysterical laughter. "Oh darling watch me" I lick my lips "I almost feel sorry for a handsome old man like you" "then don't"

"No no no darling I said almost" I shoot his 'pride' as his scream echoes around the building, the 'thing' bleeds like hell I throw the gun and run out of the building jumping on my car.

****

Laughing to my self "it was bang and it popped", I never felt so alive. I drive along the streets, I calm down slowly giving in my alcohol tolerance.... the lights dance in front of me, "why are you dancing??" I mumble to myself, my head is thrown back but I raise it back up again. Trying to focus on the road.

"Why did you trip stupid car" I mumble with a plastered smile on my face, as I fly along with my car on the air. "Beautiful lights" I lay upside down.

Lights

Lights

Red blue white

Red blue white

My vision fades.... "black"

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A/N: I have a chemistry joke for you guys....

(Now it's not the time yu)

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