Marcus & Martinus Imagines

51: marcus • "how have you been?"

Music: Halsey's Sorry

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"Hey", I finally got a word out of my mouth. I was standing in front of my latest long time boyfriend, Marcus Gunnarsen. We were in a relationship over a year. Then, I don't know why and how, we broke up. We got into a fight, and I said those seven stupid words, "I want to break up with you". And that happened. It has been five months now. I haven't seen him since then. And he hasn't seen me since then.

We met when I was Marcus and Martinus' fan. I met them at their meet and greet and I met them couple more times. Then somehow, me and Marcus started hanging out always when we saw eachother at my town. And then one day, I went to their home, because Marcus asked so, and in that weekend we started dating. That sounds crazy, I know. But it is true, and it was amazing, and I'm still in love with him.

"How have you been?" I decided to ask, while laying my eyes on his chocolate ones. I didn't see a smile. I didn't see his amazing smile what used to become on his mouth when I told a cheezy joke. I knew he was broken. I broke his heart and I also broke mine.

"Fine, I guess", I heard his warm and deep voice. His voice had changed, it was became more deeper than what it was five months ago.

"Are you..", I put my look down, to the ground.
"Are you happy?" I picked up my look back to his eyes.
"Do you regret it?" I heard his voice right after mine. I heard blame in his voice, that is what he should be, blaming me, because it was all my fault. I was the one who made us into this situation.

"Yelling me and telling me you want to break up", he added, keeping his eyes straight in me.
"And telling me you don't love me", he added.

I got chills when I heard that. 'Telling me you don't love me'. No, it's wrong, so wrong. I've alwys loved him, and I always will.

"I know Marcus that I was selfish", I started, looking at him. I saw through his eyes that he was broken inside.

"I was broken too and I said things what I regret", I continued. Taking a little break and looking again down, because I felt I was getting emotional.

"But the truth is, I have always loved you so much, and in that day I also did, but because I was angry for you, I said those words and if I could go back in time I would go to the moment when I said those words and cancel everything what I called you and what I said to you, especially that I want to break up with you, because after that moment, I really realized how much I really love you, and it hurts what I had done, then, after it and now", I told letting tears fall down to my warm cheeks and watching still deep into my love's eyes.

I'll do some imagines too! Sorry that I've been inactive, I've been busy with school.