Marcus & Martinus Imagines

69: marcus • "mess"

Music: Steve Wallis' Melbourne Rain

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"Hi", I heard familiar voice behind me. I turned slowly around and I saw a guy. Guy who I've loved so much for these three years. And now we were going to break up. Why? Because shit happens, and my life is a mess, that made me a mess, what made our relationship a mess.

He seemed tired, huge circles under his beautiful eyes. And his face was red. Probably because of crying. But in these past two months, we were used to it. Of crying and arguing.

"Hey", I decided answer with my cracking quiet voice. I've been crying too. You can hear that.

Marcus looked at me without saying anything. He seemed just so tired. His hair was a mess. He was wearing a white t-shirt and black shorts his hands pulled in his pockets but it seemed he wasn't sure where to put his hands. He looked good even though he was like that.

"You look good", I broke the silence.

"We're mess", he said after me and I felt a lump on my throat. I was afraid. Because of this subject, topic, I didn't want to talk about us, I was too scared that it could be over, forever.

"Marcus, I love you", I panicked. Perhaps in vain, perhaps not.
He just stared into my soul. I felt like I was an open book which he was reading. He knew everything about me and now he was going to put end of it. And stop talking me. So I would been that book.

"I-", he started but I had to cut him off:
"I freaking love you Marcus".

I was going to crash into tears but I didn't let me.
He was quiet. He saw what I was going through, and whatever he was going to do or say, it would have hurt me, even though he didn't want to, he didn't mean to.

"I've been thinking", he started, after a while. Maybe he waited for a right moment. But now I was ready to listen, even it hurt.
I changed my glance into his eyes. I was listening.

"I wanna be with you", he started.

"I know we have been arguing and having problems in our relationship but like you said before, it's because of your loss in your life, then I'm ready to help you get over of it that we could be the happy, loving, caring couple what we used to be, I want us back and I know you want too".

I didn't know what to say. I was emotional. And that's why I started crying.

"But I'm scared", I said behind the cry.

"Because I don't know what's the problem with me", I added and soon I felt warm hands around my body and cold raindrops moisting my hair, face, body. It was raining.

"Babe, I'll help you to find out", he wishpered my ear and tried to calm me down by giving kisses to my hair and forehead.