lie to me | l.hemmings

0.4

Luke

they say time goes by fast when you're having fun.

by the end of the day you're left wanting to spend more time with this person but knowing you can't because there's just not enough time in one day. thats how i was feeling. i was craving her presence. everything about her was addicting to me. i could never get enough.

we went from jaming in my car, to playing beach volleyball, to her shamelessly asking a stranger if she could take a picture in his van because the seat covers were "so dope", to building sand castles, to then crushing sand castles, to eventually sitting and watching the sun set. it was one of the best days i've had in a long time.

but, that was a week ago.

today, right now, i'm sitting in a cafe with calum silently reminiscing on the past events. his voice suddenly breaks me away from my memories, "Luke?" he waved his hand in front of my face to fully get my attention, "You good? You were spacing out"

"Huh? Oh yeah, I'm good" i gave him my most convincing smile.

he smiled back at me, but his eyes held concern, "What's on your mind?". i knew he would ask. i haven't really been myself lately. my beach day with natalia was the last time her and i spoke and i guess i'm just bummed out about it. she's literally all i think about.

i let out a chuckle, "Nothin, I was just spacing out" i lied. i've been talking his ear off about nat and i'm sure he's tired of it. my eyes averted away from him and down to my coffee cup in front of me.

he sighed, leaning back in his seat, "Why are you lying to me? I'm your best friend."

i didn't say anything. i was just thinking.

"Luke." his voice was stern, "Talk to me mate"

i drew in a breath, "Im good Cal, really. I was just spacing out" i tried to reassure him and my self.

"Alright" he trailed off. he didn't sound very convinced.

we sat in an awkward silence, avoiding eye contact. i was about to suggest we head out but we were approached by a couple girls who looked to be about 16-17.

they were very shocked to see us. they choked on their words and were visibly ecstatic. we gladly took pictures with them and took part in a small conversation.

i'm sure they could sense some tension between calum and i ; im thankful they didn't say anything about it.

once the girls had left i drew in a breath, " I'm sorry Cal. I just-I can't get her off my mind. That day we spent together was amazing. The memories keep replaying in my head, it's all Ive been thinking of." i searched calum's face for a reaction but it stayed still. without thinking my mind started wondering off. before i was too zoned off, calum cleared his throat indicating he wanted my attention, i snapped out of it and met my eyes to his.

"Listen, i'm happy that you had such a great time and you have no idea how happy I am to see a genuine smile on your face again, but" he paused, i don't think i'm going to like where this is going. "I don't think you should be hanging out with Natalia alone. You haven't moved on. Being with her alone gives you an opportunity to become attached to her all over again, and when she decides to leave it's going to crush you. I don't want to see you get hurt again, none of the boys do." his voice was sincere, but his words hurt.

"I think i'm strong enough to handle my feelings and emotions Calum" i replied with a cool tone in my voice.

he laughed in response, "Yeah, okay."

this set off anger all throughout my body and before i made a bad impulse decision, i stood up and exited the cafe.

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i'm sorry it's been so long and this is such a short, shitty chapter!
i've started school again and i'm working a ton so i've been super busy.
i'll make the next chapter better and definitely longer:)

also i saw 5sos live in seattle and it was literally the best night of my life!

anyways that's all for today, sorry again:/
-ash