To all the boys I've loved before ||

Betrayal "Love"

Dear, blank
It been a while since I thought about you, most of the time I forget you were my first crush or "love."
Most of the time I rejected the thought that I had feelings for you or even dated you. When people bring it up I shut it down right away.

It's not just because of what you did , but also what you didn't do. I lost not only but my "best friend" but you also. Just then I saw not only your true colors but also hers.

We were dating , we told the whole school, yet I was fool. You and my fucking best friend. SHE WAS MY FIRSR FUCKING FRIEND. We told each other everything, I talked to her about us. But I would see how you will play around with her while I'm next to you while she played along.

I thought my best friend being close with my bf was needed. In the end she will talk about you and you will talk about me to her. In the end on the last day of school, she ended our friendship.

She didn't tell me anything on why, we got in an argument and you took HER side. You lay next to her, while she cried . You both looked at me and I saw you with her .

Yet I was the one who was supposed to be crying, but I held it in . My "best friend " and my first "love" ...

You came up to me and dumped me on the spot. Then went back to her and smiled. I saw your blue greenish eyes as you told me how I hurt her.

I didn't do a thing to her yet she made up a whole lie about me being a rude bitch and y'all ended up together ON THE LAST DAY OF FUCKING SCHOOL.... PATHETIC.

You see now I'm better, I'm more wiser on my friends and actually BLESSED to have them. They mean the world to me and saved me countless of times. I don't deserve them but I will do everything I can to thank them.

A year goes by and I'm with blank yet you want me back. I should of dropped of both y'all but that's another story to tell....

I got an update later on the years that my "best friend " wanted my number and missed me. I ignored it and returned with my true friends.

This year I go reminded about you and everyone was surprised on how I dated you. The reason being was because how bad of an influence you are and how good I am.

I ran off and tried not to cry because I didn't want to get  reminded. Yes, you had pretty eyes but through them you were ugly.

I had to see how you were now in order to forget you for good. I saw your Instagram and you smoked weed, got with a lot girls , skipped class and all the things that's were no good.

I closed the app and moved on with my life . I know I can't forget you and can't unlove someone but I can love someone else.
Myself....

Goodbye blank.