JYLAN: Just Friends?

Chapter 4

JACKSON'S POV:

So, dinner wasn't that bad. There wasn't any awkward silence at all but I think Dylan was trying to tell me something, but he got interrupted. Once we were both finished eating, we paid and started walking home. 

D: What are your plans for the rest of summer?

J: Nothing really. I'm not that busy really.

D: Then we should hang more. You know, do all the fun NY things that we haven't done yet. 

J: Yeah that would be fun! 

D: And maybe I could get some of my school friends to join us. 

J: Oh.

D: What?

J: I don't know. I guess I thought when you were talking about hanging out you meant just us but I guess that wouldn't make sense anymore.

D: Why wouldn't it make sense?

J: Well, cuz we aren't together anymore so it's different now.

D: But we're still friends.

J: Yeah, friends.

D: I thought that's what you wanted.

J: What do you mean?

D: When we broke up you said that we were still gonna be best friends. That nothing would change except we wouldn't be boyfriends anymore.

J: Yeah, you're right. I did say that. But that doesn't mean it isn't hard.

D: What isn't hard?

J: Pretending not to love you.

D: Woah.

J: Shit, sorry. Didn't mean for that to come out like that.

D: Ummm...

J: Well, I'm gonna uber back to the apartment so...

D: You don't have to do that.

J: Well I just made this conversation insanely awkward and I'd rather not walk 10 minutes in awkward silence.

D: Well if you would give me just a second to reply then maybe it wouldn't be so awkward.

I was silent. I didn't know what else to say. I just told my ex that I still love him and he didn't say it back. Or he hasn't yet. I'm an idiot.

D: Jackson, the year that we were together was the best year of my life. You taught me so much about love and relationships and life. It was so fun and you made love so easy. But then it got hard and we weren't used to it. So we gave up. Instead of working through things, we thought our love had faded. We thought that we had drifted. But we didn't. We just didn't want to actually work through what was happening. We decided that it was more important to work on ourselves as individuals than to help each other be better as a couple. We gave up.

J: I know that, Dylan. I lived through it, too.

D: But just because we ended things and gave up doesn't mean that I don't still love you.

J: What?

D: I still think of you as the love of my life. I still imagine a future together and I see us dancing at our wedding and adopting kids and being together forever. And I don't know where we go from here, but I do know that I don't want to give up again. I never want to stop trying because I love you. 

I didn't know what to say, so I started walking towards him. I looked him straight in the eye and pulled him in for a kiss. It was magical. It felt like our first kiss all over again. It was perfect.

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MY JYLAN HEART IS SO HAPPY RIGHT NOW BUT I KNOW THAT THEY WANT US TO RESPECT THEIR PRIVACY. THIS WEEKEND WAS A GREAT ONE FOR THE FANDOM LOL

HOPE YOU ENJOYED!