Roses POV
"because you raped me!"
By this point I was furious.angry with him but even angrier with myself.How could I let this go on?.I lead him on,i lead my rapist on. AGH
I took in a sharp breath shutting my eyes before slowly opening them once again. I did not like the sight
There he was.his skin had become paler.lips quivering and his knuckles turning white,
His eyes changed from beautiful blue to a dark sky bluish black. this whole sudden appearance change made my spine shiver in a bad way
He swallowed thickly and shot me a deadly glare.
Man if looks could kill
"Y-you think I don't know that?" he said deeply.
I opened my mouth to speak but he cut me off
"Shut up"
he spat before standing up rather quickly grabbing my wrist at the same time.and in one swift motion he swung me around as i hit the wall hard with my back facing it. He pushed me harder against the wall.laughing deeply as he did so.
"You're a bitch you know that?" he whispered loudly in my ear. I squirmed underneath him but that just made it worse. he pushed me down to the wall harder till it was bone crushing.
I felt sandwiched between the wall and the man in the black mask. It had been 2 weeks. 2 weeks of us constantly bickering.but we'd just laugh it off,
but we were not bickering this time. It's pretty ironic saying that about a person who is your rapist but yet you talk and laugh and cry. every single moment I spend with this unknown person I grow more fond of him. but I cant, the more I push the more I fall. I guess he is not your typical rapist.
All of this was going way too fast as I couldn't even process what was going on right now, I blinked a few times coming through reality
He let go of me with one hand while the other one was digging through his back pocket, my eyes widened. I didn't even need to know what the fuck he was searching for,
Just as I suspected. he pulled out his hand from his pocket and held out a sharp silver death threatening knife.
I swallowed the big hard lump in my throat down as I watched him wave the knife in my face. by this point I was crying my eyes out, I pleaded him to stop but he just laughed. he brought the knife closer to my neck slightly touching it.
He chuckled as he saw the fear in my eyes, he licked his lips before speaking
"I know I'm your rapist rose! I fucking know!. but there is not a single day where I don't fucking regret it!. But there was something in you that got me feeling on cloud 9. When I'm with you i feel free. free from reality, that day where I tried to rape you again was like a kick in the gut!. When I saw your face full of hurt. I stopped.. for you!!, and I'm trying to get better for us!!"
By now we were both crying, though his grip on me was still tight and so was the knife on my neck.
And that quickly changed. he let go of me and threw the knife on the floor. he looked at me sympatheticly
"I'm still trying rose. there's no way I would hurt you like that again. I'm not like that" he said wiping his tears before heading towards the window
I was sobbing uncontrollably. and with no time to think my instincts were to run after him. and that's what I did
I lunged onto him, my arms around his waist, hugging them closer to me as I cried into his chest. he stopped walking once he had felt me around him, he wrapped his long arms around my tiny body. he lifted up my face with his two hands cupping my cheek as he dried my tears with his thumbs
He kissed my forehead before looking right back to me,
I took in a long breath before letting the words fall from my mouth
"Don't leave me... I need you. I'm just afraid." I shyly spoke while looking down.
He knew what I meant, I wasn't afraid of him. but the idea of him and I. I'm afraid of what happens as our relationship grows, not that we're in one.
He chuckled lightly before cupping my face in his once again, he planted a soft kiss on my cheek. Leaving a tingling sensation. he leant down to whisper in my ear
"The longer you hide your feelings from someone the more you fall for them rose"
AUTHORS NOTE
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