After entering the palace and meeting the new king of Parthevia, which had went pretty well in Sinbad's opinion, Judar and Sinbad decided to roam throughout the town. "Seems that they've been doing a lot of work on this place since the last time we were here," Sinbad said as he smiled at his lover.
"Yeah, you're right... I like it..." Judal said as he observed his surrounding. "Does it still feel weird to be here in Parthevia?" Sinbad asked.
"A little bit... I just don't feel like I belong here... I've never felt like I belonged here."
"You're always welcome here Judal..."
"I know, but... It just doesn't feel right... Hey, uh... quick question... Where are we going?" Judal asked as he started to realize that they were heading towards the outskirts of town. "Well, I thought that it would be a good idea to visit my mother grave."
"It's on the outskirts of town??"
"Yeah, right by where I use to live."
"Oh, you mean that old shack we visited last time?"
"Don't call it that Judal."
"My bad."
Sinbad chuckled lightly as he pulled his lover close to him as they walked. "All is forgiven."
The two lovers walked and talked as they made their way back to what use to be Sinbad's home. "So...where is it? Is there a burial site somewhere?" Judal asked. "In the back."
"Oh." The Magi followed his king to the back of the house to see a tombstone of his mother sticking out of the ground. Judal walked over and sat down on the ground in front of it. "Judal...?" Sinbad asked as he slowly made his way over to his lover. Judal bowed his head in respect which was something Sinbad never expected him to do.
"Now would probably be the best time ever to finally apologize for everything I've done. It doesn't feel right for me to be here, I have no right to be here... I've been selfish and manipulative in the past. I was the one who manipulated the ex-princess of Parthevia, Serendine Dikumenowlz Du Pathevia into tricking Sinbad into destroying his own country. I've caused damn near all of the hardships that he's faced so far. I can say without a doubt that I don't deserve your son, but I do love him and I must also apologize for the fact that it took me so long to realize it... I was blinded by my own hatred and guilt to even acknowledge anyone else's feelings. I don't deserve what I have now... I don't deserve your son, his friends, nothing, but I am grateful to them for what they've done for me and I will continue to push forward to prove my worth to them. I will make sure that they don't regret having me."
Judal let out a deep sigh as he raised his head. He felt a pair of arms wrap around him, knowing that it was Sinbad, he leaned back into his embrace. "Why?" Sinbad asked.
"It was just... Something I felt that I needed to say... I obviously never knew her personally, but I felt the need to make amends for my past mistakes."
"I can understand that. I think my mother would appreciate that."
"I hope so... If she does not appreciate or accept my apologies then I completely understand." Sinbad let out a deep sigh. "To be honest with you, my mother was a very kind woman. I think she would understand your predicament and forgive you. She would also tell you to quit blaming yourself. You talk as if you're the main reason for my problems..."
"Well I know I'm not the main reason, but I am apart of it, despite what you say! I know it's because I was ordered to, but there's still the fact that what's done is done, I can't change my past mistakes, but even though it's done, it's still negatively impacting you after all of these years. If I had never caused trouble, you wouldn't have been stressed and in need to talk to people about your stress, and then you and your friends would still be happy and dandy or whatever!"
"Well, you are absolutely correct. If you had never caused so much trouble I would probably be fine, who knows. I'd probably just be stressed over King related stuff. My friend Mystras would still be alive too." Judal looked down sadly, he knew Sinbad still held a grudge against him. How could he not? That was his best friend after all. If he along with Al-thamen hadn't of started the first war of Sindria, his friend would possibly still be alive.
"Despite all of that, If none of this had ever happened, then I would have never met you and who knows what kind of person I'd be? Even though the past hurts it helped build me into the king that I am today. Also, who knows where I'd be or what I would be doing if I hadn't met you? I would probably still be sleeping around with random women. Back then I probably would have been fine with that. But... Now it doesn't really sound appealing... I can't say I'm happy about the things that have happened...But... I am glad that it brought us together. I'm a forgiving person and you know this. Some might say that I forgive too easily. If I recall, you use to call me an idiot for being so gullible and forgiving."
"What do you mean, use to? I still think you're an idiot for that...! But... that's just something else to add on to the reasons why I love you..." Judal looked up at him and smiled ever so slightly. "I know, but please... Stop being so hard on yourself. Besides, because of you, I'm feeling the most relaxed than I've ever been in... well... quite a long time, years really. You got everyone together to try and finally take the initiative to help me. It feels as if a weight has been lifted off of me. Since you helped me, now it's my turn to help you. We're gonna get you to come to terms with your past that way we can finally turn your white again." Judal smiled and looked up at him.
"Actually Sinbad, I have a confession to make."
"What's that?" Sinbad asked.
"Well... I think the process of changing my rukh has already started."
AN: HEY~!!! IT'S BEEN LIKE... 8 MONTHS?!?! I feel like such an ass! I'm so sorry for not updating. I fell off this for a while because of college. It's tough and very time-consuming... especially math... Math does not give you any breaks. I do like 3-4 assignments a night, I'm dying. BUT I'll try my best to try and get back to typing up chapters for this story. BYYYYEEE~!!
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Fanfiction(Discontinued) A stressed-out Sinbad is slowly being consumed by his black rukh and his eight generals finally start to notice. Aladdin and Judal are worried about him and want to confront him along with everyone else about his black rukh. How will...
