Can We Save Us? | Sequel to I Hate You But I Love You | Ambrollins

Chapter 29: Done Caring

Dean's POV:

I rubbed my eyes and looked again.

"Seth?" I asked.

"Um...yeah? How many times are you gonna say my name?" he laughed.

"But...."

I reached out to touch him but my hand went straight through him, making me let out a small scream and pull my hand away.

"Okay, what the actual fuck is going on right now?" I asked, reaching out to touch him again.

"Stop that." he said, whacking my hand away. "That feels weird."

"So you can touch me and I can't?"

"Duh, you could walk straight through me if you wanted."

"Okay, seriously. What's going on?" I asked as I stared at him in shock.

"Have you not figured it out already? I'm a ghost." he said.

"But.....what?" I couldn't wrap my hand around this right now.

"It was pretty lonely up there and I was missing you so I thought I'd pay you a visit." he said.

"This can't be real right now. How am I seeing you right now?"

"Because of our special connection. Plus, you were the last person to see me before I died." he said.

"So, no one else will be able to see you or hear you?" I asked, making him shake his head. "I don't even know what to say right now. I just....I missed you. So, so much."

"Aww, I missed you too." he smiled.

"Damn, I wish I could kiss you right now." I said, making him laugh.

"Me too. I could kiss you but you wouldn't feel anything." he said.

"Dad, what's all the noise?" Tyler said who had come into my room.

I looked at Seth who gasped and had tears growing in his eyes.

"Um...nothing Ty. My phone might have been too loud." I said as he climbed onto my bed.

"I had another dream about Daddy." he said.

"You did? What was it about?" I asked.

"We were playing in my room and he said he had to go. He left and never returned." Tyler said.

"Ty, you know Daddy didn't leave on purpose." I said.

"I know. It's just sad." he said before giving me a cuddle.

I looked at Seth who was wiping a tear from his face.

"Man, I wish I could give my baby a hug right now." Seth said, making me nod.

I couldn't talk to Seth in front of Tyler. Tyler would've thought I was talking to myself.

"So, why don't you go and get ready and I'll make breakfast?" I said to Tyler.

"Okay." Tyler said before getting up and walking away.

"Wow, he's gotten so big." Seth said.

"I know. Time really has flown by." I said. "I'll show you the other kids."

I got up and Seth followed me to Harper's room where she was fast asleep.

"Wow, she's beautiful." Seth said.

"Yeah." I said.

Then I led him to Amber's room where she was fast asleep too.

"Oh my god. That's Amber?" Seth asked.

"Yep, that's her."

"Wow, she looks just like...."

"You? Yeah, everyone says that." I said with a laugh.

Seth and I left the room and went down to the kitchen where I started making breakfast for me and the kids.

"So, how was life up there?" I asked.

"Pretty boring. Heaven is great and all but I missed being here." he said. "I missed you."

"Seth, you just give me the word. I swear I will drop everything just to be with you again."

"No! Dean, you will not kill yourself for me." Seth exclaimed.

"But why not? I miss you Seth, so much. You have no idea what pain I felt when I realized you weren't coming back. I need you Seth."

"But the kids need you Dean. Roman needs you. My family need you. I'll be okay."

"But what about me? No-one bothered to ask me if I was okay. It was always about the kids and your family. What about me? I lost my husband. The one person I truly love but everyone was so wrapped up in their own world that they didn't even bother to ask how I felt. I had to be strong for everyone else but there was no-one being strong for me. I was the one that needed the most comfort and support and I didn't get that because that all used to come from you but you left me. You left me and our family and we would cry every single night because of you!" I yelled.

"I...I'm sorry Dean. I didn't know you felt that way." Seth said with a tear running down his face.

"Whatever. I don't care anymore. I'm done caring about other people. I'm done being the person to lean on. Now it's my turn to cry. It's my turn to mourn at the fact that you left and now I can't ever be with you again." I said before dumping everything and running up to my room, leaving Seth in the kitchen.