Sally X Reader Oneshots

Starring Role

                      (Y/n) P.O.V

I've been in love with Sal since the day I met him but he doesn't like me back that way. I'm just his friend with benefits. His heart belongs to Ash I know it but yet I need him to say it. He's always been so vague and not responsive when it comes romance. He is coming over later today for an "appointment". I was expecting him in about 5 minutes tops.

He usually just stays over. We've known each other for two years. Since we were freshmen. I fell in love with the masked boy hard and fast. He just recently confessed his attraction for me...to anyone else that'd be a dream. But not for me because he is only attracted to me. No romantic feelings towards me. He always has avoided questions I've had about dating before. We started this friends with benefits thing a few months ago.

It's not uncommon to be sexually active when you're 17 here in Nockfell. Before I could finish my thoughts I heard the light knock on my front door. I open the door to see Sal. I go in for a quick hug before he can say anything. But he tenses up.

You're hard to hug

I then start to have a slight conversation with him. "So how's your day been today?" I say eagerly. "Fine I guess you could say" he says with absolutely no enthusiasm in his voice. It's almost as if he's annoyed or uncomfortable by me asking things. I really try to get him to open up to me but he still seems really tense. I sigh thinking about the many sleepless nights I've had trying to figure out what's going through his head.  I just want to be closer to him but he refuses to let me in even the slightest

Tough to talk to
I can never fall asleep

I sigh and decide it's about time we just head back to my room. At least when we are doing it I can pretend he's in love with me too....the only thing this sessions does for me is makes my heart flutter and my stomach turn with excited

When you're in my bed all you give me is a heart beat.

Whenever we are around each other as normal friends I can never feel comfortable talking to him. I can never act out on my feelings. I feel stiff and I just sit there and let everything happen. The only time I can ever really take control or talk to Sal is when we are being intimate. It's like for the night he forgets that it's all just pillow talk to him and nothing else. He actually expresses himself slightly when we are together in bed.

I feel like a statue and makes me feel depressed because the only time you open up is when we get undressed

The only thing he never opens up about is his love for Ashley...he's never said it before but I can tell he's head over heels for her. I can't bring myself to stop this even though I know he loves her. Because right now I can use the excuse it's "all in my head" at the moment. I feel Sal start to sit next to me on my bed. We start to make out and I get the butterflies in my stomach and my heart skips a beat.

I started to deepen the kiss and sit on his lap and he happily allowed this. Usually on nights like this we would have sex and he'd stay over not particularly because he wanted to but because he was too tired to head down the hall back to his apartment. But this time I wanted to make it different. He barely speaks or is intimate besides sex. I finally have enough courage to try to get him to open up and maybe even sleep closer together tonight. I continue making out with him as all this goes through my head.

He finally pulls away and asks "are you ready?". "Uh yeah but first....can we talk?" I ask. He gives a deep sigh and surprisingly says "go ahead". "Do you not want me as a girlfriend at all?...I am just curious is all.." I was cut off by him immediately shutting me down before I could continue any further. "Listen Y/N I don't want you to get the wrong idea. I told you before that it wasn't like that.". This makes my heart stop skipping a beat. I could feel the frustration pent up inside me becoming into almost anger.

You don't love me. Big fucking deal. I'll never tell you how I feel.

I tried not to show my frustration toward him but Sal is quick on that. "Listen Y/N I'm sorry...I just need to think." I tried to tell myself it wasn't something to fuss over but it clearly was! Every second I was thinking of it the more I was losing my self control. I then just blurted out exactly what I've been wanting to say "Is it because of her?" I spat. He seemed to try to shrug it off in a way I could clearly call bullshit on. "What are you saying??? Who's her?" He said in the most convincing voice he could muster up but I still could see right through it and could hear the nervousness in his voice. "Don't play fucking dumb Sally I know you're into Ashley" I said confidently almost hissing it out at him. "Fine, for fucks sake Y/N yes! I like Ash!" He said in a defeated tone. "Then what am I to you?" I said in his face.

It almost feels like a joke to play out a part when you wanted the starring role in someone else's heart .

"I honestly don't fucking know yet!" He threw back at me before grabbing his mask and storming out of my apartment. I went to bed that night feeling almost empty inside now knowing he likes Ash. This was my time to turn away and never look back. I can't be around Sal after all we've done yet him not even knowing my value to him. It's astonishing how you can prioritize someone but still mean nothing to them. I fell asleep soon after. When I wake I see that Sal has texted me multiple times.

Sal: Y/N I'm sorry for the fight.

Sal: please get back to me when you can

Sal: Y/N I should have told you sooner.

I looked at these texts blankly for a few moments and decided it'd be best not to reply. I started to get dressed in my (f/c) oversized sweater and a pair of comfortable leggings. After I am fully dressed I head to the kitchen and grab something to drink. Before I could even reach the fridge I heard knocking at my front door. I made my way to it kind of sluggishly. I wasn't in the mindset to be seen let alone talk to anyone. I swiftly opened my the door and saw exactly what I dreaded. It was Sal.

"Y/N you haven't been responding to my texts!" He said in an almost concerned tone. I didn't give a verbal reply which seemed to upset him further. "Can I come in?" He said almost desperately. I shakes my head back and forth telling him no. "Y/N listen....I know I like Ash, but that doesn't mean I can't try with you!". I actually spoke up this time "absolutely not" I said sternly. I quickly told him exactly what I felt finally. "You like Ashley! You shouldn't have to try to like me! I obviously am not what you're looking for Sal so please just leave me alone!" I then quickly shut the door
I'd rather walk alone than play a supporting role. If I can't get the starring role.

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This chapter sucked I'm sorry! But if you have a song suggestion you'd like me to write then comment it.
Song: starring role by Marina and the Diamonds