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EIGHTEEN

EIGHTEEN ~

SHANE'S POV

Isang araw pa akong nag stay sa hospital,and it like a prison,tanging kain at tulog lang ang ginawa ko,

That guy,di ko na siya ulit nakita but he left me a confusion,

I feel better now,but I'm not okay,physically and mentally,who wouldn't be?

When i got home,isang nakakalungkot na aura ang sumalubong saakin,and then my tears just fell off again.

I walk slowly,and tears keep falling,until i reach my grandma's coffin laying

All my cousin,and relatives are here,

Hindi ko na pinigilan ang luha ko,and i cry and cry

My mom approach to me and hug me really tight and so as my little sister,they hug me like they're saying that they wont leave me.

Habang naka confine ako sa hospital,my mom surprise me,she got home from work and she will stay with us for like two weeks,it's kinda short but it's okay for me,i really need my mom right now

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"Mom,why did grandma left us?"i asked

"I didn't say a goodbye"

"I didn't even say how much i love her"

"Kung alam ko lang na tinitiis niya yung sakit na yun,sana hindi ko na siya iniwan pa"

"Mom,I'm such a fool to leave her suffering,I'm such a fool for not noticing that she's suffering,mom,i really hate my self"and i cried again

"It's not your fault baby,nobody does"and she hug me tightly again

"Don't blame yourself too much baby,it's not your fault that your grandma isn't with us anymore" then she kiss my forehead

I really blame my self

For not showing her i love her

For not telling her how much i love her

For not taking care of her

I'm such a fool

I'm too selfish

Granda,I'm sorry,and i love you

Tears keep falling

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Bukas na bukas na din ang libing ng lola ko and all night all i did was cry

Cry and cry hanggang sa maubos ang luha ko,pero wala yatang katapusan ang luha.

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Today is day,the day that i will say my finall goodbye,a forever goodbye.

Nandito ang lahat,mga pinsan ko,kapatid ng lola ko,anak,apo mga kamag-anak at mga kaibigan ko.

Iyak pa din ako ng iyak habang tuluyan ng inililibing ang lola ko sa hukay

Itinapon ko and puting bulaklak and letter katulad ng ginawa ko noon sa lolo ko

"La,i wish you're happy now,kasama mo na si lolo,sana masaya na kayo,i love you la,and i really mean it,sorry kung hindi ko naipakita sayo ang pagmamahal ko nung nabubuhay pa kayo,mahal na mahal ko kayo la"at bumuhos nanaman ang luha ko

My friends approach me,and they hug me but i didn't see Alayn and Leighn,

Tumagal pang ilang minuto at isa isa na silang umalis hanggang sa ako si mama at ang kapatid ko nalang ang naiwan.

"Baby,umuwi na tayo,naghihintay na sila doon at dumidilim na din ang panahon"

"Mom,i don't want to go home,i want to stay with granda just a little bit"

"Mauna na po kayo,I'll message you if I'm ready to go home to pick me up"i said

"Okay baby"and she kiss me in the forehead

At umalis na sila at ako nalang ang naiwan

Tumingin naman ako sa puntod ng lola ko katabi ang puntod ng lolo ko

"Lo,La,nagkita na ba kayo sa langit?"

"Sana masaya na kayo"

"Hindi niyo na mararamdaman yung mga sakit na tinitiis niyo nung nabubuhay pa kayo"

"Pero bakit niyo naman po ako iniwan La?,without  me saying a goodbye and saying how much i love you?"

"La,i miss you already"

"Lo,i miss you so much"

And i cry again

Hanggang sa bumuhos na ang ulan,pero nanatili lang ako sa pwesto ko

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*UNKNOWN'S POV*

Nakatanaw lang ako dito sa malayo habang pinag mamasdan si Shane na umiiyak sa puntod ng lolo at lola niya

Unti unti namang bumuhos ang ulan pero hindi gumagalaw si Shane sa pwesto niya.

Agad akong nataranta ng bigla nalang siyang bumagsak

Sht,pasaway talaga

Kinuha ko ang payong na dala ko at binuksan

Nagtungo ako kay Shane na ngayon ay wala ng malay

Sht,Shane,anong ginagawa mo sa sarili mo?pasaway ka talaga,alam mo naman na galing ka palang sa Hospital but look at you

May part sa puso ko na unti unting nawawasak,seeing her like this makes my heart broke too

She's too fragile

Yet she's strong

She's broken

But she keep picking up those broken pieces

Binuhat ko siya at isinakay sa sasakyan

"Manong,sa bahay nila"sabi ko sa driver

Bumahing naman ito pero nakapikit pa din ang mata

Kinapitan ko ang noo nito at sht sobrang init mo Shane

"Kuya pwedeng pakibilis"utos ko sa driver

Sht sht sht sht,Shane i will blame my self if this gets worst

I can't see you like this Shane

I can't see you suffering

Nakatingin lang ako sakanya ng bigla itong magsalita

"Please don't leave me,La" then tears fell again in her eyes

(Author's note)

Ahahahahah,mianhe Shaneyahhh,i need to do this,ahahaha masyadong malungkot ang bawat update,mianhe I'll make it up to you magiging masaya ka ulit sa susunod na update

Sorry for a long update,ang hirap kasi mag isip ng isusunod eh