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Cerita Pendek

This is closure This is a message. A message that you are not alone. That there are people going through the same pain as you.

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Why

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by CherryGirl19

by CherryGirl19

I met you a year ago
We became close...
You flirted..
so did I.
I thought that I was able to trust someone again.
I thought that I was able to be myself again.
You took all the pain a way.
You made me feel good about myself.
You made me confident
We have some good memories together.
We did so much together over a short time.
Then
You hurt me
You hurt me again and again.
You repeatedly made me feel like I was worthless.
I respected you so much I kept going back to you.
You took advantage of that and hurt me again.
You apologised
And you hurt me again.
You wanted to be left alone.
You wanted me to be someone I was not.
I am done trying
I am done trying to be someone I 'm not, just so you'll like me.
I am done trying to be someone who pleases everyone.

I am done being someone who's caring.
I want to be cold hearted.
I am sorry I didn't leave you alone but you scared me that I'd lose you.

In the end that's what happened.
I lost you...

You blocked me
And hurt me.

Thank you so much for our memories together. If you read this know this.
I did not want to annoy you.
I did not want to push you away.
I wanted to help you.
I knew you were struggling with something.
I couldn't understand why you wanted to be left alone and I've lost trust in everyone. I keep losing people and that's why I'm running scared.