Random Crap About Meh 2

Uh its me...

i lost my mind guys, and no one knows about it

i wake up scared each day

i cry at nights

but today i was called smart and beautiful 

the opposite of me...

and maybe he is right but i cant sleep tonight 

what is wrong with me

nothing i tell myself

nothing

ITS A LIE

everything i say to myself is a LIE

he

idk

im not the right person to ruin someones life

ive done it before

...sadly

i have a boyfriend that i am not able to text but i feel single at the same time

he is probably waiting for me to answer or giving him hope that i cannot give

i will break him

i will go back to my dark place in a snap

a dark place is where i talk to no one but family and only eat with family and i stay silent for a long time

i know this is not what you want to read because you cant understand it but i know he will find this soon and ask questions

...till next time my loves 

~A.P