End Of All The Endings (Book 2)

End Game 17

(A/N: Lapit na birthday ko skl hahaha.  31)

End Game 17

"Change, we can feel it now "

Sheliah Santibañez

Namamaga ang mga mata ko dahil sa ilang oras kong pag-iyak. Lucas did not disturb me, alam niyang I need some space and time to feel myself.

My system is shocked. I just can't absorb things yet. Masyado akong nabigla, it could cause me a heart attack.

Sumandal ako sa pintuan ng terrace ng kwarto. The view is breath taking. It's so calm.

But how could a rainy ending given to a perfect day? I don't know how many times should I repeat to myself that we're over. We're over. We're over! Wala na kami, we are not meant to be. We are not perfectly matched by the stupid cupid!

I heard a knock. I cleared my throat. "Come in."

Binuga ng pintuan si Lucas na may dala-dalang soup. He's wearing his casual smile, linapag niya sa lamesa ang tray.

Lumapit siya sa akin at linapat niya ang kanyang kamay sa aking balikat. "Kumain ka na, your body is drained. You need to insert energy."

Mariin kong pinikit ang mga mata ko. "Am I ugly?"

Naramdaman ko ang paglayo ng kamay niya sa balikat ko. Daretso niya akong tinitigan sa mata. "You are gorgeous." May diin niyang wika.

I sarcastically chuckled. "Then why Art left?"

Yumuko siya at umiling. "I have no idea Liah. I wish I have."

"I wish you do." I mumbled, I faked a snore and I smiled. "I'm so hungryyy! Nakakatakam naman 'yang soup." Pag-iiba ko ng topic.

"Sige, heto kumain ka na." Kinuha niya ang bowl ng soup. Linapit niya sa bibig ko ang kutsara at inirapan ko ito.

"Hindi na ako bata Lucas, I can eat." Inagaw ko ang kutsara sa kanya at sinubo ko ito.

Humalakhak si Lucas. "Masyado ka namang banas Liah. Padating na nga pala mga Kuya mo so bilisan mo kumain. And one more thing, I bought you clothes but I don't know if those are your types."

Sinimot ko ang buong mangkok and I drank the water. "Nasaan na? I'm excited to see it."

Bumuntong-hininga si Lucas at ngumiti.  "Wait, kukunin ko sa kwarto ko. " Paalam niya at tuluyan na siyang lumabas ng kwarto.

Tumayo ako at linigpit ang mga pinag-kainan ko.  Itinabi ko ang mga iyon sa ibabaw ng lamesa. 

I saw a mirror,  I don't know but it attracts  me.  I faced my reflection and you can tell me that I am just looking in front of a Sheliah Maricar Santibañez but no. I am staring at the girl with full of greed. A desire of being happy even in just a day,  where she can hold and keep good moments that she can treasure in her lifetime.

Everytime she sees a light,  she sees a flesh of a church and ringing bells and angels calling her name. But it never change her system. She stays the same.

Tinago ko ang naka-litaw na buhok sa gilid ng aking mukha papunta sa aking tenga. I looked for a comb and  scissors, maybe it's  time.

Sinarado kong muli ang pintuan, maiintindihan naman siguro ako ni Lucas.

Linugay ko ang mahaba kong buhok, I cut an inch. Pinutol ko ang buhok ko sa harap to create a fringe bangs. I styled is as much as I can, natuto na din akong mag-gupit kahit papaano.

"Your love is like a heroine to me, it drives me crazy. " I spoke in front  of the mirror.

"I don't know what have I done to you for you to leave me hanging on the other side of the road. Sawa ka na sigurong nakikita ako,  I gave you all but you gave me nothing.  Maybe I should move on,  maybe I should focus on myself. Maybe I should leave too."

I wipe my tears, hindi na ako haharap sa'yo. Wala na ring silbi kung paulit-ulit kong ipamukha kung gaano mo ako ginagag* ngayon.

May kumakatok sa pinto kaya agad ko iyong linapitan para buksan at tumambad sa akin si Lucas na may dala-dalang apat na shopping bags.

His mouth is open while staring at my hair.

Hindi ko mapigilang mairita.  "Pangit ba? " Tanong ko sa kanya.

Umiling siya at nilapag niya ang mga bag sa sahig.  "No-no! It's good actually,  bagay sa'yo ang bangs. Wow."

Ngumiti ako ng tipid. "Salamat."

"Is that for a change?" Biglang tanong ni Lucas and I quickly nodded.  "A-are you sure?"

Yumuko ako.  "I won't change myself  for him, I'll  change for myself.  For my own good." Nag-angat ako ng tingin sa kanya. "And I want you to help me again Lucas. It's not a revenge thing again, it's  more likely  to be a payback  time."

"--but it's  the same Liah."

"No it's not." I said in a calm tone. I tried to manage an innocent face. "I want him to pay the damage in my heart. I admit, mahal ko siya it wont  change but I'll try to avoid my feelings! I want him to realize how big is his loss. And it's me." Tinuro ko ang dibdib ko. "And to this organ that keeps me alive. "

Puno ng lungkot ang mga ni Lucas, I know this kind of look. Naawa siya sa akin.

Ayokong may naawa sa akin.

Huminga ako nang malalim. "By the way, can I wear those clothes right now? Uuwi na ako sa bahay. I'll take my things." Pag-iiba ko nang usapan.

"Liah, nakuha ko na ang mga gamit mo. Your brothers will come here, they are on their way."

Umiling ako. "I have some important  things that you forgot. Kukunin ko and don't worry, he won't come." Kinuha ko ang mga bag at pumasok sa CR.

Sumandal ako sa pinto at dinama ko ang pintig ng aking puso. You're crazy
Liah. You know he's there. You know it.