Cowardly Warrior | Taehyung ✔

Annoucement

Pulling my scarf above my nose, I headed towards the women's academy. My mind was flooded with worries.

So Joon really figured out my identity. He's the first person to know.. He doesn't yet know I'm Amira, so it shouldn't be a big deal that he knows Aman and The Warrior were the same person. Aman wasn't even real- just someone I made up so I can enter the men's academy.

But no, that was a lie. Although Aman was made up, that identity was still apart of me and felt real. Just like I'm Amira, the princess' cousin, I am also Aman, a boy who fights for hours in an all men's training school. And as much as I hated to admit it, The Warrior was also apart of my identity too.

All three of these identities comprise me. Perhaps some of these identities were built upon lies and secrets, but they had so much value in my life.

I recall to Joon's offer.. should I bring The Warrior persona back? I already still anonymously fight on the streets- what harm would putting a single identity upon it do?

I scratch my head. No, The Warrior could bring a lot of harm... I could become a common villain against those I fought. Opponents from my past and present could come together and find a single enemy to destroy- me.

Maybe I should stop fighting on the streets altogether. Joon figured out my Aman identity- what if someone else does too?

      But it's really not that big of a deal, right? If everyone finds out that Aman, Amira and The Warrior are all the same person and I'm impersonating a man, my father would lock me up but I wouldn't die. Sure, I'd lose the little freedom I had, but I'd still not lose everything, like a poor person would.

        I finally reach the women's academy. I climb the back fence, climb the tree next to the window and slip through.

     "Amira, how was class?" Chinua greets me. Erhi, our servant, was braiding her hair into an intricate hairstyle next to Chinua.

    "It was fine... a little exhilarating and scary today, but I enjoyed it," I honestly replied. I was about to head into the attached washroom to bathe, when Chinua calls out something else.

      "So when are you gonna tell us where you really go to?" She asks.

     I freeze in my steps and turn around. "H-how do you-"

     Chinua grins. "Look, I've had a feeling for years you've been going somewhere else besides the horseback riding academy. I understand horseback riding is very intensive, but you always return drenched in sweat and hide some strange gashes on your body."

     I gulp. "Look Chinua-"

    Chinua stops me. "But I trust you. I know how locked you feel in the palace, and ever since you've been secretly going to wherever you're going, you come back looking free. You appear so much happier than I've ever seen you in our encaged childhood."

    I smile and she continues. "Take your time to figure out. Then you can tell me everything and I'll be all ears to listen. But until then, just know I got your back and will always protect you."

     I run up to hug her. "Thank you, Chinua! You're so kind and I definitely will tell you everything once I figure it out. Just a few days or weeks maybe but I trust and love you!"

    Chinua grins and then makes a face. "Amira I love how you're hugging me because you barely ever initiate physical affection.. but can you please hug me after you take a bath?"

     Erhi waves her hand in front of her nose and also grimaces. "Yeah girl, you STINK!"

     I jump back and scratch my head, awkwardly. "Haha, sorry."