Changed feelings || J.JK FF [EDITING]

Chapter 13 [unedited]

//Next morning//

Y/N P.O.V.
I wake up, for some reason I slept really good last night, probably because of Jungkook... He is such a good person, but I still think the kiss was a 'friend thing'. I get ready for school.

//At school//

Jungkook P.O.V.
I'm early, I sit down at my desk and wait for Y/N to come. Something inside me told me this morning to pretend I'm sick. But I really want to see her... Shit, will she ignore me now? Will she think I'm stupid? Will she be angry at me? AHhh I caN't tAke tHi-
Y/N: Hey Kookie.
She silently says and sits down next to me. No expression on her face. I want to say something but I really don't know what to say. Did I mess up yesterday? Should I apologize? I'm overthinking things aAghH-
Y/N: Why are you staring at me?
I was so lost in thought I didn't even know that I was staring at her.
You: H-huh? Oh sorry...
I feel my cheeks burning up and look down. Jungkook, you're such an idiot. The teacher walks in and starts class, but I really can't concentrate. I can only think about her...

Y/N P.O.V.
Jungkook hasn't really been concentrating today... What the hell is on his mind.
Teacher: JEON JUNGKOO AND Y/N PLEASE CONCENTRATE OR YOU BOTH WILL GET DETENTION!!
I get slapped out of my daydreams and try to concentrate, but I still can't... I think I'll just skip school for today, I'm having an enormous headache.
You: Excuse me Teacher can I go home? I'm feeling sick.
Teacher: Sure, only because you already finished your homework. Get better soon.
I walk out of the school and go home, straight to my room. I let myself fall on bed and let my mind think about nothing. As if I'm in a trans I get up to grab something sharp, my pocket knife? Sure... I set the sharp point against my arm, with a thoughtless and silent mind. It hurts, it bleeds, it-
*dingdong*
I get out of my trans and start to cry. Why did I do that? I swore to myself to do that no more. But yet... I go downstairs with my arm still bleeding, I look through the peep-hole and- JUNGKOOK!? Shitshitshitshit... I need to clean the blood up!! I hurry to my room and hide the knife, clean the blood from the floor and from myself and I put on a sweater because I couldn't find a plaster. I run downstairs and open the door, only to be greeded by that cute bunny again.
Jungkook: Hey beautiful...
You: Uhmmmm... Hey Kookie... What are you doing here?
Jungkook: Just checking up on you, school is over anyway.
School is over already? Damn I must've took long.
You: Okay thanks for uhh, checking up on me... Wanna come in?
He smiles and walks in, I look down and notice a red spot on my white swea- WAIT WHAT!? Shitshitshit, he can never find out! He may never find out! What am I going to do no-
Jungkook: Hey you coming out of the hallway or not?
I nod and gesture him to follow me to my room. I don't know why actually, probably just a habit. We're sitting on my bed and I try to hide my arms as much as possible.
Jungkook: So why do you always wear long sleaved clothe-
You: NO REASON! I mean ermm... It's comfortable?
He chuckles so that's good I guess...
Jungkook: So I wanna talk with you about yesterday...
Oh man holy shit!
You: Ehh w-what about y-yesterday?
He looks at me with a mysterious smile... I can't figure out what it means.
Jungkook: Sorry I kissed yo-
You: Nonono it's fine it's fine!! But why did you do it though?
Jungkook: Well I...
Please like me back please!!
Jungkook: I just felt like it?
He what...? So he's playing with my feelings? What a jerk!
You: So if you feel like kissing someone you can just do it without considering their feelings!?
Jungkook: No!! What I mean is... I felt like it because I like you.. Really really much. But you probably don't like me ba-
Okay enough talking I need to kiss him... I press my lips on his and it feels like drugs, way too addicting. At first he is jungshook but then he kisses me back. He pulls me onto his lap and our first gentle and loving kiss becomes more steamy by the second. He bites my lip and it feels so good there comes some sound out of my mouth... Jungkook uses the time I open my mouth for himself to enter his tongue in my mouth. It feels so good I can't even explain it. He runs his hands over my back and sides and I'm holding his neck with my arms, ignoring the pain. Suddenly he changes positions and pushes me onto my bed. While he's hovering above me, I can only see pure  lust and love in his eyes. He puts his hands beside my head and starts kissing me again, but now he also kisses and sucks my jaw and neck. Leaving purple spots on me to mark me as his. Suddenly he comes back to sense and looks at me.
Jungkook: I'm sorry did I go too far?
You: No, but it was just far enough, I liked it to be honest.
Jungkook: Me too... Y/N?
You: Yeah?
Jungkook: Please be my girlfriend, I love you so much, since the day we met...
I could die in this moment (Blackpink stanners here? They are great stan them! Okay back to the story)... I'm so happy!
You: YES!!
He chuckles and kisses me again, then grabs my wrists to pull me up so I can sit straight. But he accidentally grabs me on a painfull spot.
You: AUCH!
Jungkook: What's wrong??
I try to hide my arms but too late, he already noticed them.
Jungkook: Baby, what's with your arms?
You: Nothing..
Jungkook: Clearly something is wromg because there is blood on your sweater.
You: Nothing is wrong Kookie...

Jungkook P.O.V.
I pull her towards me and hug her.
You: Show me your arm my dear.
She shakes her head so I just break the hug and pull her sleeve up, only to be met by many scars and wounds.
You: Y-y/n... Who d-did this t-to you?
Y/N: No one...
She looks away with a sad look in her eyes. Did she-....
You: Did you do this... to yourself?
She keeps avoiding eye contact and a few droplets rolls from her eyes.
Y/N: Why would you care anyway..
You: I'm your boyfriend and I love you!! Now tell me, why did you do this to yourself?
Y/N: Please leave Jungkook...
You: Bu-
*thunder followed by raining and some lighting*
Damn aggressive weather...
You: But I'm sure you'll feel better if you open up to someone.
Y/N: I don't want to open up... Yet... I only screw things up and I need to be alone now...
You: But wouldn't it be better if you had someone by your sid-
Y/N: LEAVE JUNGKOOK, I NEED TO BE ALONE!
I don't like this aggressive version of her, she looks so hurt, but I just want her to be happy.
You: Bu-
Y/N: GO!
With that she pushes me off of the bed and runs into her bathroom... I'm speechless. I leave her a note saying that I won't be mad at her and if she wants to she can come over or just call me. It's raining really hard today so I just run home, I can't see much but I'll go with it. I'm almost home, ugh more rain starts pouring. This stupid storm suc-
BOOM

Silence... Last thing I heard was a driving car. But now...
Painless... Last thing I felt was unbearable pain. But now...
Darkness... The last thing I saw was a flash of light. But now.........