Take Me With You, I Wanna Feel Better

He left, she came.

"Did you even love me?" I asked. I knew somewhere he did love me, after all I had observed.
"Yes, ofcourse I did love you but I don't feel the same anymore."
My eyes didn't take my side and started showering the most embarrassing thing 'tears'. He didn't even care now, he had to go, he was leaving now and I couldn't do anything about that. Maybe we weren't meant to be. Maybe all the sparks were fake and I had poisoned myself with heartbreak depression now.

 "I'm sorry" he said running his fingers through his hair. I nodded and he, left.

It was a family reunion, family wasn't my thing because I didn't even feel completely comfortable with it. Family, as most people find precious, mine could be better without me. There are of course many reasons, first thing you should know is that I've anger issues. Regrets are one of my old friend. So you are welcome to the dark. Well, we arrived at my cousin's home and I felt weird like what the hell should I do here? I couldn't get him out of my mind. 

"Hey kiddo" said my aunt with a warm smile.

 "Hi" I replied dryly. "You okay?" Asked my aunt hoping for me to look at her but I kept looking down.

"I'm okay, no worries mom." I said and walked away to the rest room, thinking if only I actually had my mom with me, after my mom died I started to call my aunt 'mom'. 'I'm being the most depressed person in the world right now' I thought while crying. 

"You okay dude?" Somebody shouted from outside. Oh so who is it? I didn't bother looking in the mirror and opened the door curiously.

"Oh shit, you have been crying alot, your eyes are all red".

"Who are you?" I asked impatiently. 

"Uh I'm your cousin's friend, just came for some work, what's your name? Just wondering" I still wanted to cry and I didn't know what's going on, I needed someone. 

"Ronica, it is. Yours?" I still miss the way he called me Ronny, he's always on my mind. "Allisia, it is" she said with a smile. Fuck, she's beautiful. Am I being gay right now? 

"You're beautiful Allisia" I complimented with admire in my eyes. 

"You are more beautiful than me but thank you hehe" she said with a chuckle. 

"Honey, we gotta go now hurry up" called my dad and I frowned. 

"Oh I see you gotta go but you seem so nice, can I have your number?" Oh wow. 

"Yeah sure, gimme your phone."

"Hey, I'm here if you need me, call me anytime" she was so nice and caring I can't- 

"My phone hehe" she chuckled again.

"Here you go." I said handing her phone to her. We exchanged goodbyes and I walked to the front door glancing at her one last time.

It was Thursday, one day more to the weekend. I didn't know what I was living for anymore. It wasn't only about my ex boyfriend who just cheated on me but the problems and the past. Family problems can destroy you, most importantly it leaves you stained for a lifetime. You can't get out of the voices, the noises as I should list it, they don't leave your memory, you somehow remember the time when you lost it all. Well, as I was telling you, one more day to the weekend and I was hell of impatient. All them pretty girls made me uncomfortable and low like what do they think when they see themselves in the mirror? Do they also say 'I'm ugly as fuck' or is it just me because my ex used to say 'you're beautiful' a lot and I'm stuck between whether I'm ugly or okay? I walked into the doors of one of the most popular school in my city, hot boys walking from here to there but I couldn't forget him...