Take Me With You, I Wanna Feel Better

Perfect Like Her

"Don't stare at me like I'm ice-cream and you're a two years old kid" you are something more delicious than that. "It's just you're so beautiful." I said looking in her dark brown eyes. They were like a brown ocean, once you get drowned, you want to die in there. She was all I could ask for. 'I don't deserve her' I thought again and again. "Aren't you gonna go see your dad, hon?" Ah my dad. "I just don't want to face him, Ally. I don't want to lose him, he's the only family I have got besides my brother and sister who doesn't give a fuck about us anymore. He said I'm a disgrace to him and I really am. Her only left kid is gay. I feel what he must have felt like." I broke down infront of her, it was a habit like I saw her and found enough comfort to cry. "Sshh, I know. It's okay. It wasn't really your choice, you both can make things work out. Don't worry. I have you." She said calmly and smiled at me. I smiled back.

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*Allisia's POV*

"Dad, I'm so sorry. Please wake up. We will find bee and jay. We will contact them and be happy again. You just have to wake up. I'm so sorry for everything but it wasn't really my choice dad." She kept sobbing and apologizing although he wasn't really listening. Just seeing her hurt tore me into pieces. She was gorgeous inside out. Why does she has to go through this? I wish I could help her. I didn't want her to be like me. What she did ealier today was horrifying. I didn't know she could do that. I walked up the stairs and found her laying there unconscious. She seemed so hopeless. I wasn't really expecting that. When I saw her text I thought it was someone else texting from her phone or she was drunk but I really couldn't risk it. I had lost someone before. I didn't want to lose anyone now. "Hey it's okay love. He will wake up after some time, don't worry." I tried to calm her down, she didn't deserve to cry, she deserved to be happy all the time. I'm afraid if she gets to know the truth, she will hate me. She will hate me for what I did. I want to let her know who I was, I want her to know me, not just me from the outside but the real me but I'm afraid that I would lose her like I lost her.

"Hey hey dad I don't wanna make this worse for you but I'm so sorry dad, I wish I could change myself and I love you more than anyone. Please don't hate me for this. Please" the old man woke up finally, she was sobbing onto his chest. She was so pure. I was watching it all from the corner so that he wouldn't see me. After all I didn't want it to be bad for her again. "We will talk about it later, Ronica. Did you eat lunch?" He really cared about her, sometimes you know you don't know what you say in anger. I can relate to that. "No dad, I was worried about you. Please don't do this ever again. Please don't try to leave me like mom did." She mentions her mom again and again, I don't really know why I feel this lost connection with her like I have something that we are connected with. It's love of course but there is something else too. "I won't do it ever again, honey. I promise." He assured her with a warm smile but sad one and she smiled fakedly back at him. She's too beautiful for anyone. I wanna heal her. I want to be her saviour. I want to show her what love really means. I want to spend my life with her. I don't know if it's love that I feel for her or its her brownish chocolaty skin that melts me for her, her black eyes are like a forest with hidden souls, her hair were purest black, silky long, like waves in an ocean, her eyebrows were perfectly designed, her acne made her more gorgeous, she was perfect like her.