Take Me With You, I Wanna Feel Better

Is It Love Or Affection?

Author's note: The youtube audio up there helped me to write this chapter so maybe you'll enjoy reading while listening to that? ;) All love.
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He kept talking and telling me stuff I really didn't pay much attention to. He kept chuckling and laughing, smiling widely. "How'd you know that I live here? You know you ditched me, right? Now, now you're sitting on my couch having doritos and acting like nothing ever happened between us?" I said the things, I had been wanting to ask him since he came. "Look, I am sorry and I didn't come by my will neither I found out your home by myself, someone told me." I gulped at his answer. "Who?" I asked desperately curious. "Rayne Blake. Your father." I couldn't believe it. "Why did he?" I wanted answers. Fucking answers. "I and him have been in contact ever since you both moved in here. Today, he called me and said you were in trouble, he told me that he wouldn't be able to come for you at time, that's why I had to come. I found this on your porch though. I don't know if I should show you this but I got to." He said and showed me some pictures. Some were of me and allisia hanging out. Some were of me having alot of hearts on it. And "What the fuck." I muttered and saw a photo of allisia with a saying 'I'll kill her then we both may live happy ever after.' It said. "Are you okay? What is it?" He worriedly asked. I couldn't think at this time. I didn't know what to do now. "Someone is coming after the girl I love because he's fucking obsessed with me. I never hurt anyone but why does everyone want to hurt me?" I broke down and ran to my room. He came after me.

"Open the door, Ronica. Everything's going to be okay, I'm here. Please don't lock yourself in, talk to me." What should I expect from him even? He had hurt me before, he will do the same now too. "You can go, Ham. Thank you for coming, I'll be okay." I said out loud against the door. "No." He replied firmly.
          

I opened the door after some time and he was still there. "Why are you doing this Hayem? Have you not hurt me enough?" He's just making me more sad. "I was an asshole back then, Ronica. I'm sorry about everything but I want to help you now. I know that wouldn't change the past but atleast I will try to make even a little bit okay for you. Let me in Ronica, I swear I won't hurt you." I'm so weak that I couldn't even just kick him out of my house. I'm such an asshole that I wanted to hug him and feel better. "Thank you." I hugged him and he hugged me back. I could feel him smiling. At that moment I felt like I had no self respect, I needed affection, whoever it is, I just needed love. I felt that I was going to hurt Allisia but I couldn't leave her by just saying that. I didn't know if it was love that I was feeling for her or just affection.

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Allisia's POV:

"Fuck you Allisia. How could I not know? Sleeping with me and hanging out with that slut?" Her words made me want to punch her in the face but I knew it was my fault. I was a mess. I couldn't think of a way to tell Ronica, she must feel really hurt. "I am sorry but I swear I loved you, it's just, it's like I don't feel anything for you now and I'm sorry for that." I tried my best to hide my lies with another lie. I didn't deserve love at all. I hurt so many people in my life and I can't risk hurting Ronny but I loved her like I never loved anyone in my life.

I completed every possible arrangement to make her happy, she deserved the whole world. I asked her to come to my home this weekend and she actually said yes which I can't still believe. My mom was so excited to meet her, my dad as per usual not being happy with my sexuality but he still supported me and I loved them both for that. I just wanted her to be comfortable and feel loved here, nothing else.

I kept staring and crying at lasey's pictures, she was gorgeous. I still couldn't get over the fact that I was such an asshole back then. 'I'm sorry Marcie' I kept saying in my head. I did so many horrible things. One of them was this morning and the fact that I did many things like that is horrible as well.

Only 2 hours left. 2 fucking hours. I couldn't wait no more. I was so excited. Was she going to like my family? Was my family going to like her? Fuck. She was so beautiful and cultured, my family was of course going to like her.

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Unknown's POV:

I didn't know how she could do this to me? After all I had done for her, she would do this? Why? I gave her all of me, every part of me, every inch to make her feel I'm all hers. That fucking Ronica took her away from me. I couldn't hold back, I even broke down infront of Allisia, infact I have cried many times infront of her but today felt strange. The Us felt strange. 'We aren't even anything now' I kept muttering to myself to calm myself. I'm not going to let her go that easy. Not to be an obsessed or toxic lover, I will take away Ronica from her. She belongs to no one but me. I will have her back. I fucking loved her with all my heart. She is mine period!