Take Me With You, I Wanna Feel Better

Would She Leave Me Like Him?

"Hi" I replied, moving back. I wonder why the hi comes out of my mouth so dryly.

"Hey, didn't you want to come here?" Oh shit I ruined it.

"No no, I'm not feeling good lately, I'm so sorry that you're feeling like that, I'm happy I'm getting to spend time with you, why am I like this I'm glad to be with you right no-"

"Hey hey stop its okay honey" she said hugging me. It felt so good. I pulled back and smiled at her.

"Well, let's stop with the emotional act and enjoy? Hehe" she said chuckling. Her teeth were like diamonds. She's so beautiful.

"Stop staring at me, I could stare at you like that 24/7 but you will feel weird, right?" She said laughing. I should really stop with being the gayest person in front of her.

"I'm sorry" I said dryly, I didn't want to lose her. I tried to speak less as I could because when I get too comfortable with someone, that someone leaves.

"Really? You don't have to apologize all the freaking time and I want to hug you again so tight that you forget all of the wrong things happened with you because I can see through your eyes" she said it all in one breathe. I started weeping out of nothing.

"Oh my God" she said and pulled me in for a hug. Her scent, God.

"You smell good" I said sobbing on her shoulder. She started chuckling.

"You really are interesting" she smiled, looking straight into my eyes.

We sat quiet looking at the stars for the next 10 minutes.

"Are you in a relationship?" She asked out of the blue and oh I remembered him again.

"Not anymore" I replied still looking at the sky.

She turned to look at me. "Look at me" she said. Those words.

"I can't" am I going to cry again?

"It's alright honey. It's okay to cry, I got you, and I'm not going anywhere" she was too good with words. "Allis was his name, I also remembered him when you told me your name, Allisia. He cared about me like you. Hugged me like you, looked at me the way you do, that's why tears just come out of my eyes when you stare at me! And he left me, you will too, please stop acting like you care!" okay, did i just yell at her?
"I'm so sorry about that Ronny. I will never leave you I swear to God. I'll be with you whenever you feel down." She said having her hands on my cheeks and her face was so close to me, we were staring at each other with so many emotions. We talked for so long after that. Favorite colors, favorite songs, favorite singe- and oh yes! She liked lo-fi too.

"I got to go now, Ally. Can I call you that?" I asked smiling.

"Yes of course Ronny. And I would take you with me forever but I know you have a mom who's waiting for you hehe" she spoke, tears fell from my eyes. Oh my God.

"I don't have a mom. She died when I was 7." I said looking down.

"Oh shit I'm so sorry Ronny. Fuck my words and my brain. I'm sorry like so sorry." She pulled me in for a hug. Again.

"It- its o- okay" I said stuttering.

"I'll give you a lift honey, no problem it is." She spoke again.

"It's okay, thanks" I grinned.

"Okay then, goodbye, one last hug?" She asked sweetly, and I didn't reply but just hugged her tight. She hugged me back and we walked away looking at each other one last time. This day was too good.

I arrived at home and changed in to my nightie. I didn't bother eating something and checked my phone. 2 texts.

Allis
Allisia