One Big Risk ~ A Harry Styles Fanfiction

CHAPTER 5

"Kaylee, you okay?"

I know the voice from anywhere. Harry. My eyes shoot open and I wipe them realizing there are tears streaming from them, and beads of sweat trickle down my face.

I sit up looking around my room. Then I remember the dream. It was about Austin. I hold back tears as I think of my brother and the dream.

I turn to Harry.

"How'd you get in?"

"I heard you screaming, and when I came over the door was unlocked... so I decided to make sure you were okay", he answers.

I smile. "Thanks. Wheres umm Zayn and Paulina?"

He shrugs his shoulders. "Im not actually sure. They've texted you a few times but I didnt want you to think i was snooping so i just waited for you to wake up."

I lean over grabbing my phone from the bed side table, and open it... seeing I have 3 unread messages.

FROM: PAULINA

- Went to breakfast. There was nothing to eat here. Didn't wanna wake you. See ya XX

FROM: ZAYN

- Hey Sis. Came to ihop. Sorry we didn't wanna wake you. Love ya, see you when we get home. X

I smile when I see he called me Sis. Zayn reminds me of Austin in so many ways. He's like another big brother. I'm so thankful to have zayn in my life.

I read the last text.

FROM: PAULINA

- Oh & we didn't lock the door

because you have both keys. Sorry. ily bitch X

I turn off my phone and set it back on the bed side table. I turn to Harry looking into his green eyes. "What was your dream about. You looked so vulnerable. It killed me."

I wince as I remember the dream. Austin was my best friend. Images of his pale body dead on he ground flash before my eyes. "I can't tell you", I whisper.

Honestly I wish I could tell Harry. But I spent so many years keeping it locked up.

My brother died. He promised he would protect me. He promised he wouldn't let anyone hurt me, but he died. He's not here now. And he wasn't here on THAT day. I was raped, and he wasn't there to save me.

"Come on love. You can trust me", Harry says wrapping his arms around me.

"I...I...I've held it in for too long", I shut my eyes.

"Sometimes it good to let it out", Harry says.

I screw my eyes shut tighter and let out a big sigh. I haven't known harry for long yet I feel like I want to tell him. I don't know if its a very good idea or not but my heart keeps telling me to just tell him. To tell one person and stop holding it in.

"Well let's start with my family. I have both parents of course and my 16 year old sister Jessie. She's so amazing. "

Harry chuckles. "I still don't see how this is bad love"

A tear strolls down my cheek. "I...I...I had a brother. An older brother named Austin. He umm, he died 4 years ago."

I take one deep breath before deciding to just let it all out.

"My mom was an amazing mom. For a few years. When I turned about 7 or 8, she started changing for the worse. I remember when she would cook breakfast and make our lunches before school. Or when she would sing bed time songs as we went to bed. But she changed. Soon I ended up finding out she was doing drugs. Not one kind but multiple kinds. All sorts. I have no idea why. She would scream and hit us. I would go to school with bruises up and down my body. I cried every night wondering where my mom was. It was my older brothers job to protect me... and it was my job to protect my little sister who was only 5. I would take her In my room and blast the music so she couldn't here my mom screaming or hitting me and my brother. Jessie only got hit a few times but I would always take her in the room before it got out of hand. And my older brother Austin would protect