Silent Plea

Thirteen.

Breathe in and breathe out,
In and out, take slow deep breaths
That’s how to calm yourself.
But these days it's getting hard to breathe all the time
Every day is a constant drag to the finish line
The finish line that keeps on getting further and further away till it eventually goes out of sight
It's hard to inhale when the tears keep coming, when the sounds become louder and it's just a plethora of mish mash
Shit that doesn’t seem to make sense anymore
And with every inhale there's a burst of pain and you're slowly spiralling away like a whirlpool
You just can't control it anymore.
The pain is just a part of you, something you’ve learnt to live with.
Suck it up Ash, stop bothering others
Its pain and its who you are now.
One day you'll say goodbye and be gone from this world and maybe just maybe then the pain will stop.
But for now breathe in and breathe out.