Silent Plea

Thirty Five.

If I could tell my younger self something, I'd tell her that she makes it out alive.
And that everything's okay and someone loves her and accepts her despite all the shit she's been through.

And that someone is a wonderful human being and he's worth it.

He makes me feel things I've never experienced before,
do you know what that's like?

He makes me feel joy and pure bliss, like nothing is going to go wrong.
I feel safe and content around him like I can let my guard down and be free and vulnerable.

He sees my soul and enhances it with his own.
He makes me radiate happiness which I didn't think I'd ever do.

He's a storm in his own way but it calms me, he balances me out in ways no one ever thought.

Life has been okay so far, I'm starting university in less than a month and I'm absolutely terrified to shut the door on my high school self. I'm growing everyday mentally and not really physically since I'm still 5'1 (smh I'm so small) anyway life isn't as bad as it usually is. I have my days when I can't bear to be touched and I want to be alone, I can't sleep and I just feel numb but I have a lot of good days as well with great people supporting me. My boyfriend helps too, having him doesn't mean all my issues have disappeared it just means neither of us have to suffer alone. It's okay to seek help and it's okay to lean on someone when you need to. I hope everyone is okay, I'm always hear to listen.